Month: October 2023

Sports

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I have never really been interested in sports, especially when I was younger. I never played a sport seriously, nor did I have any interest in watching it either. I think the reason why I overall completely avoided sports was because I felt like I couldn’t do it. I felt like every time that I tried to play sports in elementary school I just didn’t have the “skill.” This was a pretty negative way of thinking. I didn’t want to try. I didn’t have any motivation to, just because I thought I was not going to improve if I was not good at it immediately. This caused me to not branch out and try to find something I liked, which actually applied to other areas in my life involving skill as well. I simply lost motivation way too easily. When Covid hit and online school started, I hardly ever exercised. I thought sports weren’t for me. When I first joined my current school, I was nervous about all of the sports options. There were so many things that I hadn’t tried before. I heard many of the girls in my grade that were joining volleyball, and because I didn’t know what else to do, I joined it as well. When I first began to play volleyball, I was very discouraged. I started putting more effort in, and even though I was so terrible, I enjoyed it. I was excited to go to practice. I would talk to parents about it, and how happy and nervous I was to play in a real game. It is my third year playing volleyball, and although I am still in the JV team (and not good at all), I am so thankful that I first tried playing it.

Also, at the end of September, my best friend and I went to go see a baseball game that she invited me to. I have actually been to one baseball game when I was younger, but I can’t remember very much about it. My best friend first invited me to go during the summer, and we were so excited and ready for the day to come. When we arrived, just being in the environment with so many people passionate about this sport made it all the more exciting. We got into the stadium, and my best friend bought both of us matching jackets! I hadn’t even seen the baseball field yet and I was so happy. I had such an amazing time there watching the game with my best friend who made it even more special, and there was even a fireworks show afterwards. I’m really happy that I have come to appreciate not only playing sports, but watching them too.

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Advanced Procrastination

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Last night, I talked to my mom about how I used to be an academic weapon, and now I’m an academic victim. This is due to procrastination. I can make up the best excuses for not doing my homework. I used to just go on my phone, clean my room, or maybe make food. But recently, I have been getting advanced in my procrastination strategies. Now, instead of that, I will do an assignment from a different class instead of the one I need to do. I tell myself it’s not procrastinating because I’m getting work done. I actually need to stop doing this, especially with world notes, because it has caused me to do poorly on SAQs, and I also still haven’t done notes from like 2 weeks ago. Overall I’m pretty behind in all my classes, but at the end of the day, I usually get things in on time, but it’s extremely stressful. Last week we had a notebook check, and I was up till 3 a.m. doing notes. Anyway, it’s Thursday and this isn’t due until Friday so technically, I didn’t procrastinate this one.

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I wish I had a soul tie.

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I wish I had a soul tie. I wish I had a person who was just there for me, and I could be there for. I wish there was someone who understood how I felt when I was alone. I want to know someone better than they know themselves. I know everyone has one, but when do I find mine? I think I’m looking for this feeling of connection that doesn’t actually exist. I really don’t know what it feels like to have that, or maybe I do. Maybe I am romanticizing the idea but it doesn’t actually exist. I keep trying to look at these things on a deeper level, but what if it just isn’t that deep? I don’t ever want to convince myself of something that isn’t real, even though I want so bad for it to be real. Or maybe I should just keep being delulu. 

Feeling Butterflies

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The butterfly effect is affecting my life. One small change and my whole life is different. New doors opened. New relationships are forming. And new butterflies flutter around in my life. The feeling as if butterflies are flying around inside of me. I feel like running through an open field of happiness. Sadness fled through the field at one point but now the field has drained. New things are coming into the field of happiness. There will always be flood and downpour but sunny days come of it. My mind and me urge to find the good in everything and everyone. I found the good. The good people come to those that wait. The good memories come to those who wait. Even if this is not the peak moment in life…Live as if it was. Feel the butterflies swarming inside of you when you try new things. Let the bad occurrences in life become the butterfly effect. Let the butterfly effect lead you to the happiness. From the butterfly effect comes with loss but a gain in the end. Recently the butterflies inside of me have been overwhelmed of nerves, excitement, and stress. The nerves come from new beginnings. The excitement comes from the recurring dates with the person who makes me so happy right now. And the stress comes from the problems all around. Personally the feeling of excitement or happiness is the best butterfly feeling. The butterfly effect causes the feeling of butterflies from within.

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SHIN SPLINTS

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Shin splints are a prevalent issue among athletes, caused by repetitive pressure and stress on the tibialis and the tibialis anterior tendons. This often happens when increasing the intensity of your training or if you have just begun training. Medically referred to as “medial tibial stress syndrome,” shin splints can cause symptoms like soreness, tenderness, and pain. These symptoms can mostly be treated with ice and lowering your training intensity, and trying to build up to where you want to be. However, if these symptoms are left unchecked, it can cause a stress reaction, which is a defense mechanism the body does under intense stress either physical or mental, and stress fracture in the foot, tibia, or even hip. The reason it can occur in the hip is the same reason a building will collapse if part of the support is taken out. With a weak base (the tibula in this case), then the whole structure will be weak. The hip will start compensating and having to much strain on it, causing micro fractures. These micro-fractures will often cause significantly more pain and rarely get treated due to the pain being not intense enough to go see a medical professional.

With your body undergoing your new style of training, it causes issues in your tendons and muscles but how does one fix this? Oftentimes times, the simplest treatment is the most effective for treating shin splints with ice and decreased intensity however, if your symptoms get check in with your doctor to try and fix the issue. However, it will most likely cause you to stop engaging in intense physical activities for a while.

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Hello Reader

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Once again I’d like to write a letter but to you instead.

Hello reader,

Nothing guarantees you read this, but if you do, then I hope you enjoy. I’d like to begin with a question: how have the past few months been? Either the start of high school or the beginning of college, maybe even just another fall season. Have they been good? This is a question I can answer very simply with no hesitation. Terrible. From what I have gathered from my fellow classmates, they feel the same way. Our final year, and this is what it has come to so far? Senioritis has hit the senior class hard this year. The moment in time when you have 3 essays and a blog post due by 12, and you’re running around campus scaring a little kid. But they are memories I will cherish and fondly look back on while in college.

Do you think you’ve lived a good life till now? A simpler question would be, if you died right now, would you be satisfied? I’m guessing probably not, but then again, you could be. What really gives us the fulfillment we need? Being popular? Being liked? It’s all kind of dumb if you ask me. Although I do understand the pressure of needing to be liked or accepted by your peers. It’s a concept I’ve learned to loathe.

Of course, I want to be liked by my class and others, everyone does. But why? Why give people that power over you? Why give anyone power in general? That was a lot of questions thrown out there. Take your time to answer them.

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Okay, on to the next. How has your day been? What has been making you lash out? What’s been making you sad? What’s been bringing you joy? These questions seem so plain over text. How are you supposed to hear my sincerity, my intent through the text. You can’t.

Reader, if I can be totally honest, I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. All I know is I have my dream, my eternal sunset, and I’m not sure I’ll ever catch it. I tend to make life harder them it is, I think everyone does.

Anyways reader, I think I’ll leave you with a question: how do you want your life to go? I personally want to go down in history. I’ll remember this line and all of you, looking fondly at the sunset I’d finally caught.

Sincerely,

me.

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Random Facts About Me

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My favorite color is and always has been yellow, but pink is the prettiest and navy blue is my favorite to wear as of now. My favorite show for all of middle school, into high school and even to this day is Dance Moms. My other two favorite shows are Keeping Up with the Kardashians and Gossip Girl. Currently I’m watching the Real Housewives of NYC. When I was little I loved Dora and my favorite Disney princess was The Little Mermaid/Ariel.  My favorite sport is volleyball but I don’t really like playing anymore because it’s just upsetting. Up through my freshman year I played competitively my whole life and high school softball that one year. I used to play catcher when I was younger but my knees couldn’t handle it anymore so I became a third baseman. I was diagnosed with diabetes at the end of 6th grade. I repeated Kindergarten because I had a hard time reading and it was “highly suggested that I repeat”. In first grade I was in an afternoon reading program called “Reading with the Dogs” to help me try to catch up and get some extra practice in. I’ve never broken a bone. I’m a middle child. I have a sister who is 17 months older and a brother who is 17 months younger than me. I’m closer with my brother than with my sister. My family puts scratcher lottery tickets in easter eggs for easter egg hunts. I got bit by a dog in Ohio the summer going into Junior Year and had to get stitches through my lip. If I could meet one person alive or dead I would want to meet my mom when she was my age. I love heights and have always wanted to go skydiving. I bought an inflatable cow costume for an AP European History class presentation about pasteurization in my Sophomore Year. I like having late night conversations. My favorite ice cream flavor is coffee. I love pickles.

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I Hate Blogs

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Every week for journalism class, we have to write a blog. It is actually getting a bit annoying, and we are only on Blog #5. I know some other people actually really like the blogs, but I feel like I always have a hard time coming up with the topic of the week. My ideas are either way too broad and boring or way too personal. Also, I always forget about the blogs until around ten or eleven on Friday night. This is really scary because I have to quickly go through the process of writing an entire blog and go through the struggles of choosing a topic in the span of about twenty minutes before it turns twelve. In conclusion, I hate blogs, and I’m going to make this exactly 150 words to spite the word minimum. Thank you for listening to my speech, and have a wonderful night.

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Sleep

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Since school began this fall, I have been so sleep-deprived and I don’t know how to give myself enough time to sleep and get everything else done. I find myself taking short naps in the middle of the day because of my exhaustion. My issue with my lack of sleep is that I stay up late doing homework but because of how late I stay up and how tired I am, I don’t process anything as I’m doing it. When I’m in class the next day, I’m always too tired to focus. It feels like a never-ending cycle that I’m hoping will end soon. I try drinking energy drinks at night and during the day, but it just makes me feel even worse and grosser. I need to find a way to stop procrastinating and get work done as soon as possible because I won’t be able to live like this much longer.

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Treasure

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I have a very wonderful friend. She is always on my side. What I like about her is that I feel comfortable with her. When I first came to study abroad and saw her for the first time, my impression of her was that she was cute and kind. I didn’t understand English at all, so when I went to breakfast, I always wanted to be her friend so I tried to ask her, “Can I sit next to you?”, which I had checked with a translator beforehand.
She had a lot of friends and was a high-class person to me. It was at the end of 9th grade that I became closer to her. In 10th grade, we became roommates, and I got to know her better. She usually works very hard in her studies, but when I put on music, she sings and shares the good times.
I have known her for three years now, and we are so close that I consider her a childhood friend. I feel safe to talk to her about anything, and she accepts everything about me.
I have many memories with her, but I really enjoyed her visit to my country this summer.
She is so important to me that I cannot imagine my school life without her. I am very thankful to her for being my best friend. I want to make many memories with her in the future. And I wish her a wonderful life from now on.

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