College Decisions

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Recently, I went to the lower campus to talk about the colleges we applied to and committed to. It was very interesting, but it was weird to be the only person in that group to mention a lower-tier school. Some people were talking about committing to UCLA, NYU, UCSB, and Pomona College, while I was just there, like ” so after spending four years at a college prep school, I will be attending somewhere that is super easy to get into.” But yet again, I did it because I didn’t have the funds to do all four years, unless I wanted to sell my organs and bone marrow to the black market.

But at the end of the day, I feel I made a good choice for myself and my wallet. Instead of paying literally 100k over four years, I only have to do it for two. And I’m hoping that if I really lock in, my chances of getting into a good UC will be higher.

Film Review — Wake Up Dead Man

While Wake Up Dead Man is undoubtedly the weakest film among the Knives Out trilogy, it is still an extremely enjoyable viewing experience.

The presentation and cast are the best they’ve been in the trilogy so far, with Daniel Craig and Josh O’Connor in particular having passion, charisma, and chemistry that radiates throughout their delightful interactions.

Another aspect of the film I appreciated is its approach to religion as a primary theme. Despite Christianity being deeply rooted within the narrative’s events and messages, the film doesn’t enforce one singular outlook on religion. Characters—primarily Wicks, Jud, and Blanc—parallel different responses and interpretations of Christian values, providing nuance and ambiguity where most other religious stories would impose a clearer, black-and-white answer. Wicks uses religion to justify self-serving actions, weaponizing it as a means of harvesting power and manipulating his followers to his will. Jud wants nothing more than to spread the healing and love of Christ, serving the world instead of fighting it. And Blanc represents absolute neutrality, acknowledging how faith can be a source of healing while resenting the religion’s historical abuse and hypocrisy.

However, the narrative’s ending and twist reveal is what ultimately brings this film down from its predecessors. While the killer’s motivation—on paper—makes sense, their plan relies on so much suspension of disbelief and convoluted coincidences that the mystery becomes impossible to deduce for viewers. In an attempt to make the murders seemingly unsolvable, the film sacrifices a narrative that makes sense as well as opportunities to incorporate clever foreshadowing throughout its runtime.

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In Between

I think growing up is less of a big moment and more of a bunch of small realizations that keep stacking up.

Lately, it’s been hitting me that I’m actually leaving for college soon. Not in a “new chapter!!!” kind of way, just in a quiet, slightly unreal way. Like I’ll be doing something normal and then remember, oh… this isn’t going to be my everyday life for much longer.

It’s strange because nothing around me has really changed yet, but I feel different in it. Like I’m already a little bit detached from things that used to feel permanent.

And at the same time, I don’t feel fully ready for whatever’s next either. I don’t have everything figured out, I don’t suddenly feel like an adult, and I definitely don’t have some clear version of who I’m going to be when I get there.

I think that’s the part no one really says out loud. You don’t magically become ready just because it’s time to move on.

It’s more like you’re in between versions of your life, and you kind of have to step into the next one before you feel prepared for it.

So yeah, I guess this is what it feels like. Not super dramatic, not super clear. Just slowly realizing things are ending while something else is about to start, and being somewhere in the middle of that.

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Friends

I love my friends. They are my lifeline in a way. My real friends have been there for me through my ups and downs. We have a group chat name called “famuliegh” and I think that’s funny. Anyways, my friends are the best. We have so much fun, we always go to the beach, hang out, and there aren’t ever any problems between the 4 of us. Friends are people who are there for you no matter what, and that’s why I love my friends. The last thing I’m gonna leave here is that, even through some ups and downs that I’ve had with some of my friends, we’ve worked it out and stayed close; our friendship is reciprocal, and that’s why I love my friends.

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The Solution for Shopping Addicts

I think I have an addiction. I love buying clothes. I love buying clothes online, I love buying clothes in-store, and most of all, I love thrifting. Despite my urges, I’ve really held back from online shopping and shopping at in-store name-brand stores because the prices are way too high. The thrift store is a retail addict’s dream. Cheap clothes, searching through thousands of pieces, and avoiding fast fashion. Spending so much money each week isn’t sustainable, so I’ve found a perfect method to make my money back. Every time I go thrifting, I pick out would-be expensive name-brand clothing that I know I don’t want. I’ll spend twelve dollars at most on an originally fifty-dollar pair of jeans. I then take photos and measurements and list them on online selling sites and make huge profits. I obviously can’t sell it for its original price, but anything higher than twelve dollars is a profit, and twelve dollars isn’t much. Also, any clothes I outgrow or no longer like get posted. I’ve been selling multiple items a week and making money just by shopping and getting rid of old clothes. I will be getting a job over the summer to make more money, but reselling clothes is the best cheat method for shopping addicts.

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Driving

I feel like I have a love-hate relationship with driving. Before I got my license, I told myself I would love it and would want to drive everywhere. But even a drive to Ventura and back feels like a pain sometimes. It really just depends on what mood I’m in. For some reason, driving long distances makes me so tired. The one thing I hate the most about driving is driving alone. Sometimes I can vibe with myself and music, but the majority of the time, I call someone to keep me company. Whenever I pick up a friend with a license, I make them drive if I’m not feeling it. But that’s the bright side about getting your license, along with all of your friends getting it around the same time. I can’t wait for my best friend to get her license because that means we can always switch off who is driving. Or if she comes over, that means that I don’t have to take her home. That’s another flaw, being responsible for dropping off your friends after a long night. Most of the time, I really don’t mind it, but when I’m tired, that’s when I’m just not feeling it. Overall, I love driving it; it just really depends on the circumstances that I am in.

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If The Apocalypse Were to Happen

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Let’s say the apocalypse happened tomorrow.

Anytime I think about it, my thoughts are either “I would survive” or “there’s absolutely no way I’m putting myself through all that.” If I really think about it, I believe my chances are not completely down the gutter.

I consider myself a mildly athletic person. I’ve played soccer and run track. These are sports that involve a lot of running and jogging, which you would assume would give me high endurance; you would be wrong. Although I play soccer, I would say I have bad endurance, and long runs make me wanna die. Probably another reason wouldn’t wanna survive the apocalypse.

Actually, now that I really think about it, the chances of me wanting to survive the apocalypse are completely down the gutter. Like, what’s the point? All you’re doing is surviving and trying to avoid the unavoidable. At the end of the day, either zombies, starvation, isolation, or betrayal is taking you out.

Archer

Archer is my friend. He saved my life on the weekend. I was in my bed thinking about another weekend at OVS dorms, which are very comfortable but don’t have much excitement. Then my savior, Archer, said he could take me out this weekend, and I was thrilled. I leaped out of bed and started to dance all over my room.

When Archer picked me up, we went to his house before going to McDonald’s, where we ordered some nuggets and fries. After that, we hung out for the rest of the night and woke up on Saturday. On Saturday, we drove to my haircut appointment and sang karaoke. We also ate super good food and ended the day at the golf course with our friend Alex.

Archer is so amazing because on Sunday, he took me out to dinner with more friends and we got sushi. We then threw a football in a park, and I did a backflip off a swing. What a day.

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Dear Future BrownBeans

I thought it would be nice to write a letter to my future self in four years, when I won’t be a high school senior, but a college senior.

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Dear Future Brownbeans,

Right now, April 15, 2026, I am writing this blog and giving you a snapshot of my day as a high school senior. My day started at 6:45 am. I went to the bathroom and got ready for the day. I skipped breakfast because I had a heavy dinner. After I finished getting ready, I went to Yearbook, and Mr. Schude reminded us that our Yearbook is due in like 2 hours. Next, AP Stats. I have no idea what is going on in that class. Then a snack break! After, I went to English where we watched a movie and did the Wordle. Next, Lunch! I had fajitas with rice, beans, and salad. Then, we had a student council meeting, pretty boring. Later, I went to Psych and started working on this blog. Soon I’ll have sports, with dinner and tutoring coming later tonight.

Now, onto my questions.

How is college? Did you meet a lot more people? Are you still friends with people from high school? How would you rate your happiness on a scale of 1-10? Is college actually a lot easier than high school, or were people lying? Does your room have AC? Was the new building worth having the smaller dorms freshman year? Is the food only good on admitted students day? Are you tired of Acai bowls yet? Are you and Emely still roommates? Are you going to become a lawyer? Starbucks barista? What was it like voting for the first time?

Whatever you are doing, I bet you are really happy and living your best life. See you in four years!

Sincerely from the past,

High School Senior BrownBeans

Tanning

I’ve tried to be on my tanning grind lately. It’s so random for this time of year, but I’m not complaining. It was just winter, yet somehow it’s been staying so hot and sunny lately that it genuinely feels like summer already. I’ve been. trying to make the most of it, going out during prime UV whenever I can. Sometimes I even feel defeated if I don’t sit out because of school or other reasons.

I’ve become so dedicated to the routine that I will try to avoid anything that involves being inside during peak tanning hours. I can’t risk missing the small window when the sun is in the right spot, especially since the recent heatwave. My favorite part of the process is getting inside and seeing my fresh tan lines; it makes the hours spent lying out feel so worth it.

I know I’m not the only one who absolutely hates the whole process of sitting around waiting in the blazing heat for hours. It feels like it takes forever, and staying still is the worst part, but the results are always worth it in the end. There’s something about having tan lines that makes life feel a little better, especially when the weather is actually cooperating for once.

It’s been nice to slowly gravitate towards summer. Even though it was just winter and it’s technically spring, being able to sit in the sun and get a tan will always boost my mood. I’m definitely going to try and keep up with it as long as the sky stays clear, because it looks like July in mid-April, and it’s the only thing getting me through right now.

ScienceShot: Tanning Ability Driven by Evolution | Science | AAAS

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