I saw my future last night,
In the white feather and the rabbit that crossed the road at 11:03
while he drove the car.
I saw the girl that I was meant to become
As I cross the river,
Into a new territory.
/ / /
I saw my past last night too.
I saw a blonde, curly-headed girl give me validation to leave
To say goodbye.
I saw fear, hesitation, and hate in her eyes.
/ / /
I saw my angel,
kissing me on the cheek
As tears stream down her face, stinging her scars.
She wore her denial of the reality that hit her like a truck
a mask over her face.
/ / /
And for the first time in six months,
I saw clarity and
Felt serenity in my life.
I understand where I have to go,
How to cross the river,
How to express and emote.
Today, I look at the blue sky with the white blurs,
And the blooming lavender and the blossoming rosemary with faith,
And soaring red hawk with ambition,
And a single rose on flourishing bush with purity.
SCENE — 7:00am on MONDAY, JANUARY 2020 in OJAI, CA. SHE WAKES UP IN DISTRESS FROM A LONG AND GLORIOUS SLUMBER.
- It is absolutely freezing but it’s only 50 degrees.
- This shower should only take five minutes. Jump in, jump out.
- I found myself praying earlier this week but I don’t remember why.
- I find serenity when I look up at a blue sky underneath an oak tree to see the sun peaking through the branches. It reminds me of home.
- Gold is definitely my color.
- I can wait another day to wash my hair even though it’s been two weeks since my hair has seen shampoo.
- Clouds are still wild to me.
- There is another bruise… woah.
- My body hates me this week.
- I wish I was better at sewing.
- I love his song “Call it all for nothing, But I’d rather be nothing to you, Than be a part of something, Of something that I didn’t do”
- Periwinkle is an underrated color.
- I hope they are okay.
- I love that feeling of being completely out of breath after climbing up a mountain and getting to look out at the view = the feeling of accomplishment.
- Is she okay?
- I cannot be that person for her, I need to be that person for myself.
- This soap smells divinneee.
- There is nothing better than hot water.
- I am really gonna miss her.
- Jellyfish have a place in my heart.
- How long have I been in here?
- I really gotta go.
Dear strong, capable, powerful, being,
you are not an object.
Nowadays, many people are objectified. Not just for sex, but for money, popularity, and much more.
Dear strong, capable, powerful, being,
your purpose is not just to fulfill the wants of others.
You are beautiful. You are intelligent. You are unique.
And you are here on this earth to do much more than to satisfy someone’s wants or desires and then to be put on the shelf until they want you again.
No person is single-use. No person is only good for one thing. No person is an object.
And no person deserves to be treated like one.
I was recently reflecting on a past assignment that was given to me in middle school. My memory of the prompt is vague but it went along the lines of, “write down your most cherished memories from your life.” I wrote about the experiences that I thought I was going to cherish forever. But now, four years later, I have matured and so have my memories.
I remember going into kindergarten and meeting a girl who I thought would stay in my life forever.
I remember my parents fighting over the phone.
I remember day dreaming all the time.
I remember the smell of summer in the valley and my blonde ringlets.
I remember being alone in my room but being utterly content.
I remember growing up faster than my friends,
isolating myself, being insecure.
And years later, I remember my self-realization.
I remember listening to different music, wearing different clothes, and becoming myself.
As I wrote my “memory list” 6 years ago, I have grown into (what I think) is a more emotionally in-tune woman. These memories are not actual moments from my life but rather feelings and emotions. In thirty years from now, I know I will not remember all the details from my favorite concert or my first crush, but I will retain the feelings that come along with those situations.
“I was talking about time. It’s so hard for me to believe in it. Some things go. Pass on. Some things just stay. I used to think it was my re-memory. You know. Some things you forget. Other things you never do. But it’s not. Places, places are still there. If a house burns down, it’s gone, but the place—the picture of it—stays, and not just in my re-memory, but out there, in the world. What I remember is a picture floating around out there outside my head. I mean, even if I don’t think it, even if I die, the picture of what I did, or knew, or saw is still out there. Right in the place where it happened.”Toni Morrison, Beloved
Released in 2019, Demon Slayer has been the anime of the year. After enjoying the 26 episodes of season 1, I must say that it’s very good. I have devoured all of season 1 in a matter of 3 days.
A 2-hour long movie has been scheduled for Demon Slayer, which will be released in 2020.
I’ve watched many animes. The ones on top of my head right now are: JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure, My Hero Academia, Attack on Titan, The Disastrous Life of Saiki K., One Punch Man, Mob Psycho 100, Black Butler, Fairy Tail, Devilman Crybaby, No Game No Life, Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions… Even the old ones like Lupin the 3rd, or Dragon Ball Z.
I always find joy in watching animes, and I will keep watching animes in the future.
As a critic, watching all these animes, not all of them satisfy me. However, Demon Slayer is a masterpiece, even in my eyes. The anime contains human nature and emotions on a whole other level compared to some animes, I would say it’s one of the best and truest. I’m excited for the future of the Demon Slayer series.
A Mandala is a symbolic spiritual geometric design which, when reflected on, has the ability to bring out profound inner transformation. The Mandala is self-expression in the design, meant to represent the universe. The first evidence of Buddha Mandala art dates back to the first century. The Mandala is rooted in Buddhism but later became present in Hinduism, new age spirituality and other religions. Each Mandala has significance and represents an aspect of wisdom and is supposed to remind the meditator of a guiding principle. The Mandala’s purpose is to help transform ordinary minds into enlightened ones with the assistance of deep healing.
The “Mandala a day” challenge was created by Australian artist Elyse Lauthier and it is now showing up in select areas across the world. Drawing, painting or somehow creating a Mandala a day helps express yourself creatively in ways you wouldn’t normally. It promotes self awareness and Chakra alignments.
The Challenge is simple: Each day you make a Mandala and simply let your creativity flow, embracing your originality. Creating Mandala is therapeutic because you can express your feelings through art. The Mandala a day challenge is a form of meditation and art. Mandala’s take “The meditator on a wordless journey into the minds deepest mysteries” said in Eastern traditions.
Another way to fully grasp Mandala’s intentions is to work/meditate with them. I would recommend investing in Mandala Source Book by David Fontana and Lisa Tenzin-Dolma, as it gives you specific guidance while approaching the artworks. The book includes 150 Mandala’s grouped in four sections: beginning Mandala meditation, healing mandalas, nature mandalas, And other mandalas. This book is a good reference for your own Mandala challenge or meditations.
Obtaining Mandala mindfulness is a path of self discovery. This challenge challenges us to open up and learn more not only about our conscious minds but also our unconscious minds as we remain unaware of the deeper mysteries of our inner selves through Mandala realignment.