Month: November 2023

when I leave

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I know I’ve been writing alot about the end but it has been clouding my mind lately, and I need to do these anyway. So here I go.

I’m not ready and I never will be. Why does it all have to end? I hate how I didn’t enjoy my younger years more. I wish I would have. I don’t even remember the last time I went trick or treating, what was I even dressed as? These things are stuck in my head as I feel like I’m wasting time. Why do I have to be in school when I could be out in the world living.

Living. Why?

Why does it end? Why can’t I do what I want for the years I am here? Considering we only live once, why am I wasting it here? I should be across the world singing my heart out on a stage. I should be performing every single hour. Why do I want more? These questions will most likely never be answered or changed.

What am I going to do?

I’m scared.

I think we all are even if we can easily mask it. There’s always going to be that pit in my stomach whenever I think of the end. What happens? I don’t want to leave. I will miss my friends too much. What do they even really think of me? When I’m not near and they talk about me what do they say? What are they thinking about saying while reading this? I guess I shouldn’t waste time thinking about it but I can’t help myself. I mean they are my friends, right?

I’m going to miss everyone.

I don’t know why I’m scared. I mean I do, but why aren’t others? How do they live without the fear of leaving? Can they teach me? I guess not but I really do hope I move past this. Every time it happens, I just want it to end. I’ve been here before every feeling every word. Have I imagined it all? You’ll never know how freedom will feel if you never try to forget your past.

I just want to live and maybe I will, one day.

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OVS changed my life

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When I got into OVS it changed my life completely. I remember so clearly when I was crying in my room because of how awful school was and my mom called me downstairs and said she had found a new school I could apply for. I flipped my life around completely. I changed my mindset. I had to get my grades up and take the SSAT but I got in by a miracle. I was eating a grilled cheese and my mom came upstairs crying saying that I got in. Everything changed. I came to OVS and started getting excited to go to school every day. I learned how to make things make sense. I could sit in class and not beg my teacher to let me go home. I finally had friends who were going somewhere in life and setting a good example. It will forever be the day my life changed.

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Trends

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After a long discussion in class today, I’ve decided to write my blog on trends. Personally, I am an extremely influenceable person. I buy most “trending” things and participate in many other “trends’ ‘. Trends are sometimes long-term and other times they only last a week. I have many old trend items that sit in the back of my closet collecting dust now. When VSCO was a trend I was very VSCO and I was very alt/indie when it was trending. Many of the clothes I wore during those times now sit in the back of my closet. I have been wanting money recently so I have been selling a lot of old clothes and buying clothes second hand at thrift stores and on depop. Trends truly do fascinate me, stores will be completely sold out for months and companies will create new lines just based on trends. The power social media has over what people buy and wear shocks me. One example of this is the well known green and navy brandy striped sweater. This sweater was extremely sought after and was very “trendy”, it was rare to find at in-person brandy locations and it was sold out online too. People who owned the sweater started selling it for much more on Depop and Poshmark and people spent way too much money on a simple striped sweater. Aerie also came out with a “dupe” for this sweater and it sold extremely well. To some it up trends fascinate me and the power of something being “trendy” also shocks me.

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would you rather ?

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over the years i have come up with quite a few would you rather this is my favorite

Would you rather have control over all birds in the world or all insects?

some rules of this question

  1. you can control them from anywhere anytime and as many as you want at a time
  2. you can make them do whatever you want either by general commands like “attack them” or “Go get me a bag of chips from the nearest gas station”
  3. you could also control them like they were a drone or some sort of remote control thing like your guiding them with your mind
  4. all birds are included not just the flying ones example: ostrich and penguin
  5. for bugs, you get the Insecta class which includes things like bees, mosquitos, all flys, fleas, and many more
  6. A common misconception when asking this question is that things like spiders are included in the insects the answer is no.
    • Now the original question was to control all birds or all bugs however I changed it to insects because if we said all bugs then that might be considered part of the Arthropod which includes things like spiders which is close however it also has things like crabs and crawfish so i felt it was best to just use insects.

Some interesting facts for both sides

  1. the biomass(the total quantity or weight of organisms in a given area or volume) of birds is about .008 of all animals while insects is about 1/3 of all animals
  2. there are about 80 billion birds and roughly 10 quintillion insects
  3. the fastest insect is the dragonfly clocking in at ~33 mph the fastest bird is the
    The peregrine falcon at ~186 mph
  4. the biggest insect is the giant weta(I wouldn’t recommend googling) at about 3.9 inches while the biggest bird is the Common Ostrich at about 9 feet tall

For my decisions I choose to control the birds

please let me know what would you choose and why!

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Sick

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The past week, I have been catching up on all the work I missed when I was sick. I realize I can’t take another sick day as I finish my work. I am missing so much work it’s not even comedic. We are in chapter 4 of AP World, and I haven’t done notes on 3.1 yet. I have two SARs and a whole essay to write, as well as the outline. All of this is from a book I did not read. I tried to read the book but I have a short attention span, and this is the worst book too. My brothers were doubting how actually sick I was and this deeply angered me. I was literally on my deathbed. I had a 104 fever for 3 days and slept around 3 hours a night. I couldn’t lie down because I would get so congested I felt like i couldn’t breathe. I went to the ER to get tested for strep throat and the flu and they both came back negative as well as my covid test. The other people in the ER looked rough like i felt on my deathbed but these people made me feel better. One girl had like no hair and said she had been feeling sick to her stomach and wanted to get tested for E. coli and salmonella. In this waiting room while my mom filled out endless paperwork I listened to the stories of the people in their and am grateful for being healthy now.

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yes officer i got my licenses 4 days ago

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This story talks about how I managed to get pulled over after having my license for four days.

On a tranquil night, I departed from my house at about 11 p.m. on the 15th of September. It was another typical night, and I was going to the gym because one of my friends pressured me even though I was already sleepy and wanted to sleep so I decided to go. Now it was normal at the gym that night, some goofing around since we had the whole place to ourselves. Once we were done my friend who had biked to the gym was about to bike back but I decided to offer him a ride back since it was dark and at 2 a.m. So we decided that it would be a good idea if I drove him back. so we put his bike into the back of my Prius, which was harder than expected. Eventually, we departed into the night expecting this ride to be uneventful and quick, god had other plans. As we took a right onto the main road we drove for about 30 seconds where we passed a cop. we passed him with no issues, and I was so confident to even say, “Nothing suspicious to see the officer ” while driving by the cop. Well, Apparently, he must have heard me say that because about three seconds later while looking in my rearview mirror to make sure he doesn’t follow us he whips THE FASTEST U-Turn I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE. He pulls up right behind me getting very close to my car, and just tailgates me and my friend for what feels like 10 minutes but in reality was 1-minute max, regardless that was still a while and I don’t know if he was trying to scare me into doing something illegal but I eventually take a turn towards my friend’s house and the cop follows, it’s at this point I knew I was getting pulled over. Right on cue, he turns on those lights, and I pull over. Eventually, after waiting for about a minute the cop walked up to my window (which was already down since I didn’t want to anger him by asking to roll it down). He leaned in and said, “Hey just wanted to let you know that your headlight was out nothing else was wrong but you should know and get that fixed” This was definitely one of the better things you can get pulled over for and was quite the refile knowing that I wasn’t smuggling drugs or weaving in and out of the road or something along those lines. The cop noticed that my friend in the car was a little nervous so he popped the question,” can I have your license and regressions please” Now this is a normal question; however, the DMV hasn’t sent me a license yet so I had to hand him this rinky dinky piece of paper and he looks at it and says “is this your license?” and I say “yes officer sorry I recently got my license so they haven’t sent me the card yet” he gives a shrug and says he’s going to run it through his system and heads back to the car. so he comes back and say ” So it says that you got your license 4 days ago so here’s what I could do, I could give you two tickets one for driving someone in your car and one for driving at 2 am but sense your still a new driver I don’t want to screw you over and ruin your driving career.” to cut the story a bit short he eventually lets me go after a few more embarrassing questions like ” it says you got your license on 9/11 is that correct” and I didn’t know so I just said yes and hoped it was correct. but we eventually got home say and on my way back from dropping off my friend, I passed by another cop who turned in my direction but didn’t pull me over maybe the other cop told them I already gotten got. 

please note all these quotes are from the author’s memory so they just give a rough idea not an exact

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Thoughts on Social Media

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For me personally, I have a lot of social media. I use Instagram, Snapchat, TikTok, and Pinterest. I stay off Twitter because I think that the new CEO is a little interesting, and I don’t use Facebook because I am under the age of thirty-five. However, I like other social media – to an extent. I think there are many positives to using them, such as staying in touch with friends and family, keeping up on current events, and using them as an outlet for creativity or simply unwinding from your day. The problems arise, however, when phone addiction starts becoming prevalent. Also, there can be issues with the spread of false information, cyberbullying, and overall too much time spent on these apps. So, like everything, there are pros and cons. Personally, I try to limit my interaction with these negatives by one, limiting my screen time; two, not trusting everything I see on TikTok, for example, and doing my own research, and three, blocking accounts and people who only spread negativity. I set a limit of only 30 minutes allowed on TikTok, Instagram, or Pinterest and 40 on Snapchat. I also try to only go on social media during specific times of the day as to not distract myself from staying in the present moment. Why do all this and not just delete the apps off of my phone? I actually really enjoy using Snapchat and Instagram to keep in contact with my friends – both current and old – and see what they are up to. Although social media is obviously not reality, it is nice to see a slice of what and how people I know are doing. For TikTok and Pinterest, I actually really look forward to relaxing on these apps to take away the stress of my busy school life. The information on these apps is not always the most positive, educational, or worthwhile, but I still enjoy unwinding by watching some videos or scrolling through my feed. This is why I set limits for myself because, before I did, I would find myself on these apps for hours a day, wasting my time and my brain power on things that aren’t even a real part of my life. But, when consumed in smaller doses, using social media, for me, comes with a bunch of positives that no adult can convince me to otherwise take out of my life.

Social Media: how to use it safely - NCSC.GOV.UK

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