It has been two weeks since I returned from my home country. This year in particular, time has gone by so quickly that I wonder if the day I graduate from high school will come anytime soon. I always miss my home country very much in the first few weeks after returning. Every time I come back from my home country, I pack two suitcases full of my belongings. When I first came to the U.S., I was very bad at packing. So I always asked my father to help me pack my bags in the beginning. But recently I have been doing a lot of trips and I am getting the hang of it. Also, I can now tell the approximate weight just by holding it. I always know what I am bringing back for the most part. In one suitcase I put snacks and instant rice. My favorite foods these days are dried potatoes and salmon jerky. Both of these foods have a taste that you can’t find in the U.S. and make me miss home very much. In the other suitcase, I usually bring new clothes and daily necessities. I always bring a hand warmer and a toothbrush. This time, I packed 23 kg of luggage, just over the limit. To be honest, I always get nervous when I weigh my luggage after arriving at the airport. However, I feel at home in my own country, and I am very much looking forward to going back to my home country again in four and a half months.

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I feel like I have a really negative outlook on life. I am rarely ever pleased and always have something bad to say about everything. I feel like I would be happier if I lived life with a positive attitude but I feel like living that way would just disappoint me. If you have low expectations for everything, your hopes won’t ever be let down. I have been criticized plenty for my attitude but I believe that being negative keeps you from being affected by really stupid situations more. When things go positively it brings me more joy cause I assume things will go badly first.  I support people who live life positively but pretending like everything is perfect isn’t real. Being aware of other problems is very important and pretending like issues don’t matter is delusional. I don’t want to pretend like life is a perfect fantasy land because it isn’t.