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what the BORG?

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I do not drink, but I do have TikTok and there’s a collage trend called “BORG”. It is a gallon of water that is poured out halfway and then filled up with either juice or alcohol and it has a lot of electrolytes or water flavoring in it. It’s supposed to be healthy but it doesn’t sound like it. Anyways, everyone names their “BORG” something funny and that’s my favorite part because I think it’s hilarious. Here are my favorite “BORG” names I’ve come up with.

“Wouldnt you like to know wether BORG”

“Bob’s BORGers”

“I woke up in a new BORGatti”

“Justin BeBORG”

“BORGalishis” 

“starBORG”

“Codys just a BORG, Codys this Codys that, Codys me bro. Let me be me”

“He touched the BORG”

“This BORG is on fire”

“Whose drivin this BORG”

“Save a BORG ride a cowboy”

“All a-BORG”

“Kiss me im BORGish”

““Dont touch my BORG”

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Throne of Glass

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I love reading so much. I have never loved a book more than the Throne of Glass series. I recommend that book to anyone and everyone. I am reading the Everflame series now and it’s good but I’m having a hard time finishing it because nothing could ever be as good as Throne of Glass. I genuinely got through the whole 8 book series in 3 months which is weird because I have never liked reading until now. There are literally no days that I don’t cry about Celaena waiting for Sam in the Assassins blade. Anyway, here are some of my favorite book quotes from TOG.

“I am Celaena Sardothian and I will not be afraid.”

“Once upon a time in a land long since burned to ash, there lived a princess who loved her kingdom.”

“This girl wasn’t like wildfire – she was wildfire. Deadly and uncontrollable.”

“You do not yield.”

“To whatever end, Fireheart.”

“Even when this world is a forgotten whisper of dust between the stars, I will always love you.”

“The world will be saved and remade by the dreamers.”

“It was all borrowed time anyway.”

“Nameless is my price.”

“She was fire, she was darkness, she was dust and blood and shadow.”

“You can not pick and choose which parts of her to love.”


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Bloody Knuckles and Shards of Glass

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I’ve always wanted people to be afraid of hurting me. I put up a wall around myself. I hurt people before they can hurt me because I’m so afraid to be left or called out or cheated. In reality, I am the one who leaves and insults people and cheats. I want to be a good person and I want to make other people feel good. I wish I had the self-control just to be quiet sometimes. But I don’t. I’m loud and annoying and I take up more space than I should. I’ve wanted to be a better person since I was a little kid. Since my mom told me the reason I don’t have any friends is because I am so mean. She is right. My dad told me I was like him and I would have to learn to change my personality. I would hate myself if I met me. I want to be deserving of all the love I have, but I’m not. 

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Senior quotes i didn’t use

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“The devil couldn’t reach me so he gave me passion without talent”

“Lie still my beating heart”  – Grandma Bell

“Somewhere between iconic and psychotic”

“I’d like to thank me for believing in me” -Snoop Dogg

“Imprinted on my soul and burned into my skin”

“Look at the sky tonight all of the stars have a reason” – Lil Peep

“We were taught to fear witches, but not the people who burned them alive”

“It was all part of the story, even the scary nights” -Kanye West

“One day I will have everything I prayed for. I really believe it”

“She overcame everything that was meant to destroy her”

“I have to be successful because I like expensive things”

“It was the chaos that made her beautiful”

“Rose from the ashes and danced in the fire”

“Were all addicts struggling with the drug of our choice”

“Were just kids, were not supposed to be heroes”

“Just because I carry it well doesn’t mean it’s not heavy”

“A big part of who I am is who I am not”

“We are writers. We dont cry, we bleed on paper”

“She was an open book, he was illiterate.”

“We drink the poison our minds feed us and wonder why we feel sick”

“Even with wings of wax I would fly to you”

“I would rather die of passion than boredom” – Van Gogh

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Bits and Pieces

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I hate that love is just a word someone made up. Nobody really knows what it feels like because it’s just a concept. Why can’t we have soulmates that we are drawn to like in movies and books? Falling in love with someone is not like a zing from Hotel Transylvania or a bond like in A Court of Mist and Fury. 

Life is lowkey insane concept if you actually think about it. Like, what do you mean thousands of years happened before I was born, and there will be so many after I die? I always feel crazy when I think about it, but for real, how do we know about the universe? How did we make things like light bulbs and phones out of rocks and dirt?

Is there a word for feeling lonely but also like you don’t want to talk to anyone? Because that’s how I feel all the time. I feel like I’m a pretty social person, but I don’t like being around people, and I also don’t like being alone. I also think that I’m a genuinely happy person, though, so maybe I just like to complain or something.

I have never felt so understood by anyone as I do by my best friend. I care about her so much and I feel like she can see all of the thoughts in my brain. I wish that I could take everything that hurt her upon myself because she doesn’t deserve anything that has happened to her. I am afraid that I will never meet anyone like her ever again so I am grateful for every second we spend together.

It would be so nice if food just didn’t taste like anything. I feel like I would be so much happier because I would eat so healthy. Nothing tastes so good that it makes me second guess that either. I am such a picky eater and I’m sick of choosing the thing I hate the least. I don’t know if that makes sense but basically, I just want to eat healthy and not have to deal with everything tasting and smelling so bad.

I wish I was really good at art. That would be such a cool skill to have.

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were just kids

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All I do is study all the time. I need to do something thats not study. I wake up go to class till lunch and then get like an hour break and go back to studying. Then I study during flex and go work out and guess what? I have two more hours of studying to do. How do they fill our time like that? I don’t even have any college apps anymore. I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to add that to my list right now. Sure I like organizing things and taking notes and I don’t mind the homework usually, but seriously enough is enough. At some point, they could just lay off us a little bit right? I’m trying not to stop caring about school and everything but it’s so hard. All I want to do is sleep and my life has never felt so planned out and repetitive. I’m grateful for my education, but it doesn’t always have to feel like work. For once can we just learn something fun and then go home and enjoy our lives?

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Lowk nothing

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I’m so sick of getting in trouble all the time for no real reason. There has not been one day this week that I haven’t been in trouble for something and I’m so sick of it. On Monday I got laps for being 1 minute late to turn in my phone for study hall. I also got laps for not checking out for Halloween night even though I was explicitly told that I didn’t have to and I let a dorm parent know I was leaving. Then I got laps when my alarm didn’t go off and I was late for breakfast. Why is someone there with a lap sheet every time I mess up? It’s not like I’m deliberately trying to break the rules or inconvenience the dorm staff. There should be a difference between making a mistake and knowing what is expected of you and ignoring it. I have never skipped class or been more than 2 minutes late, I’ve never set out to hurt anyone or myself, I always volunteer and don’t argue, and I’m where I’m supposed to be when I’m supposed to be there. I do well in school and fulfill my duty as a leader by helping others and setting a good example. It doesn’t make me want to keep that up when no matter how good I do I’m still punished. If I’m in trouble the one time I mess up where is my reward for all the times I do the right thing?

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Pintrest

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I think a girl’s Pinterest page is a direct representation of who she is as a person. I feel like Pintrest understands me more than anybody in the world. I know that sounds dumb because of the “Pintrest girl” stereotype, but that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about the way that when you scroll through the pictures, you see something that represents every single part of you. I can stop at any point in my feed and on the screen there will be my dream nails, a heart-wrenching quote, an angel wing tattoo, outfit inspiration in my ideal style, and art. It is the most aesthetic and calming thing to scroll and just feel so understood. 

It must be so boring to be a boy. I just can’t imagine what they even do for fun. And like what do they spend their money on? I have so much makeup and little girly things that must have cost me so much money. I also love getting ready in the morning. Imagine waking up and just showering and getting dressed.

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2025?

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It’s almost 2025. That’s the year I’ve been looking forward to all my life. I’m not so sure I’m excited anymore. Yeah, college is exciting, but I’m not ready to finish high school. Anyway, I’ve finished and submitted all my college applications. It’s a funny feeling because everyone around me is so ready to graduate, and they all have something to work towards. I don’t have a career I’m excited about or a dream college. The only thing I have been working towards is a D1 team and now I know I won’t be on one. I’m afraid because when I don’t have something to work towards I start to wander again. I feel like a zombie. I don’t want to lose my focus. Everything is moving so fast and I can’t believe it’s almost 2025. There are so many things I would do if I had more time. I better fit it all in quickly because there are 78 more days until 2025.

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Journaling

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My favorite journal lines:

I keep sucking air but it can’t fill my lungs. I feel like there’s no more air in the world.

When she tried to watch the board, her eyes would fog.

My mind likes to wander away to its own world far from reality.

She fought a silent battle behind a smile, not so much to hide her pain from others, but to hide it from herself.

She lay in bed trying to untangle her thoughts most of the time, or just to make them go away completely. Peace and quiet are foreign in her mind. She would try to read but the words would dance off the page like they were trying to run away.

She was afraid people wouldn’t understand her because she didn’t understand herself.

He noticed the tremble in her voice and the way she played with her bracelet. He could tell she was struggling. 

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