Music

I need a new playlist right now. My music taste is very unique, I like different music depending on my mood I can go from listening to Gracie Abrams to Travis Scott. I like most genres of music, I just hate classical music because it makes me want to fall asleep. I have like 4 playlists of all different genres that I cycle through but I am getting very sick of my main rap playlist. I need to make a new one but I don’t know what songs to even put on it. I am at the point where I have overplayed songs way too much and now am sick of them. I’ve been trying to listen to my 2000 throwback playlist but now I am getting sick of that as well so now I’m listening to my country playlist again. I need to make a driving playlist and a crash-out playlist.

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Football

We finally got our first win against pilgrim on Wednesday. Although I didn’t play due to a swollen knee, it was a really close game, a little too close. The score was 27-26. There were a few freshmen that finally got their first playing time and starting time. There were some great passes and rushes from them. In my opinion, Pilgrim is not a good team therefore we should’ve defeated them. We have our last game next Tuesday against a team that is in 1st place in our league. However, I do feel confident about it with all of the practices and experiences during the 5 league games. It will be a tough game but we do have a chance against them. I believe all the injured players will be back in action therefore we will definitely be ready to play against Beacon Hill on Tuesday. We’re currently 1-4 in record hopefully we will end the season with at least 2 wins.

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ranting about school rules and music

I love listening to music. It helps me focus and get things done. Whenever I need to lock in on cleaning my room, the house, my homework, or when I’m just trying to relax. I always play music. I hate this new rule at school that makes it so we’re just not allowed to listen to music. We can’t use headphones, so how are we supposed to listen to music unless we play it out loud, but if we play it out loud then we’re distracting others and most songs have swear words in them. I get why we aren’t allowed to play explicit music out loud but I’m not trying to listen to some kidz bop remix of my favorite song, so that basically means we can’t play any music out loud. Also, not everyone in a class is going to want to listen to the same music so people would get in arguments about it and make it so no one can listen to music at all. Thanks for listening to my rant have a good day.


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school mornings

I usually set my alarm for 6:35 and 7:00. I stop the first one and wake up at the second one; but this morning I had to ride in my first block so I set my alarm for 6 am. I still snoozed it once but after I was up and awake it was kind of nice. I had extra time to get ready and watch tv while I did my makeup. And I even had like ten minutes to just sit in bed, and I still left by 7:30. I have never been a morning person but I feel like I might want to start waking up earlier so I don’t feel rushed in the mornings. For me if I have a bad morning or I’m late it kinda ruins my whole day. I just feel so much calmer when I get to school early. And then I can hang out with my friends and go on my phone before school starts, and even sometimes get breakfast. Or if I leave early I can get starbucks, or coffee connection.

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The Creation of Someone on Writer’s Block

(I remember being ten and constantly looking out of my bedroom’s window.)

What’s going on here?

What are these things in my mind’s eye

Winding and filled with desperate wanderlust

Leaning out of windows to peek through

Studying and thinking

If only they could ever leave their current life

Leave and learn and grow, all like they used to

Back when they were spontaneous

And go out into that bright world out there

Just. In. Sight.

Will these things in my mind’s eye ever leave? 

Like will I go on with these wandering thoughts

Thoughts that fly and flit around my head

That I always try to grasp at

But no, it never seems to stick

And what will happen once critics see these thoughts?

What would they read out of these ramblings?

Will they draw constant connections to specific word choice, as per usual

Hyper focus and hype up the accidentals

Pay such special attention to the fact that flit, it and stick

Rhyme and just so happen to be within two lines of each other? 

Because alliteration is the height of poetic meaning

What allegory will they invent for this

Imagine the new entity which could rise

From the dirt

To be studied and beloved

Far beyond its lowly circumstance

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The Moon’s a Fonder Friend to Me

Would I need to have you admit

It could have been anyone – anyone – else

To make peace with the growth you made for me

My mind remembered paths back then

But the moon was new as a maiden voyage and –

I never gave an ample thought 

To where your hand was taking me

A derelict shack with only ravenous eyes

They’d say I should’ve been anywhere else

But that desperation made me 

Wonder if you were broken like me

And then I did recognize the musk

There is that rusting and hopeless ennui

You said my best refuge was apathy

And in the end, “you let me be”

You boasted on the courage of my honey,

Of the loneliness piercing your mind.

Mouth slick, you said – I’m the last angel you’ll send away?

Because I let some layman hoard my empathy

Remain a porcelain face.

Be stabbed through a belly’s pit.

Fluttering lips taught your whispers over my cries

As you went on to embalm each part of me

One day I stopped with bearing all your doubt

I should’ve had anyone – anyone – else

Gnawed legs do fit gnawed light stumbling through the leaves

I yearn to crack at every stride – I get to choose

“You laid in the bed they made for you”

That’s the first worthy thing that’s been said in his world

Because you are a fonder “friend” to me

I love you more than he, the sun

Suffering each fiery beating he sends your way

And you haven’t a spark to respond

Yet look how you shine with the light you’re given

I follow behind – what else will I do?

Maybe I learn to thrive, from what you did

Would I love her soft glow with no ravenous glower

But the best lesson I learned from you

Is that I could have been anyone

Anyone else

Moon Tree” by Bonnie Moreland/ CC0 1.0

(“My first kidnapping victim left me for the moon.”

“That’s rough, buddy.”)

Journaling

My favorite journal lines:

I keep sucking air but it can’t fill my lungs. I feel like there’s no more air in the world.

When she tried to watch the board, her eyes would fog.

My mind likes to wander away to its own world far from reality.

She fought a silent battle behind a smile, not so much to hide her pain from others, but to hide it from herself.

She lay in bed trying to untangle her thoughts most of the time, or just to make them go away completely. Peace and quiet are foreign in her mind. She would try to read but the words would dance off the page like they were trying to run away.

She was afraid people wouldn’t understand her because she didn’t understand herself.

He noticed the tremble in her voice and the way she played with her bracelet. He could tell she was struggling. 

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Journalism

Obviously I am in Journalism. I joined because I like the teacher and I thought it would be a fun class where I had a lot of control over what I do. After the first day I thought this is going to be so easy. And so far it has been pretty calm but it is easy to forget due dates and blog posts because there no teacher yelling at you about assignments and things like that… well sometimes there is but most of the time you have to be on top of yourself. Clearly I’m not. I came into to journalism thinking all I really needed to do is Interview Mr. Kuelling and start on my story, then with 30 minutes left in class I realized I have a blog post to do. Overall I’m happy in Journalism and I think it’ going to be a fun but challenging class.

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License

I have been wanting my license since I before I can remember, and I was confident I was going to get it. I passed my permit test first try and I barely studied so I felt confident in the fact I could get my license. From both my friends and family I have received compliments for my good driving. I went to the DMV confident in my abilities but then I failed. I failed because I didn’t look over my shoulder when making a right turn into the DMV. I was, to say the least extremely upset when I failed because the driving instructor literally told me to make this right turn very suddenly and I was not prepared. When you fail your test you have to wait 15 days to wait before you can retake it. So I’m taking my test again on September 26 and I will definitely look over my shoulder this time.

Cars Traffic” by Nabeel Syed/ CC0 1.0

Collage applications

I must be missing something. I feel like I have finished my college applications. I mean I have all of my writing done and it’s all final drafts. I’m proud of my work and feel like I’m ready to submit it all. I finished all of my questions and input my grades. I did extra stuff that I didn’t have to and I looked over and revised it all. I even toured almost every college on my list. Everyone said that applying was the most stressful part of high school but I think I must have over prepared for the stress this summer. I’m joining the volleyball team because I have so much extra time. I love it don’t get me wrong, but I’m just confused. I even wrote all of the Personal Insight essays before I realized there were only four. I don’t feel myself getting senioritis like everyone says. I must have just not had as many supplemental essays as anyone else. who knows. At least I get to do volleyball though.

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