the days are slow.

Slow enough for me to notice more things.

I like being quiet, but I don’t want to be boring.

I overthink too much about what to say and how they react after I say something.

It’s been a little worse lately but what I have noticed the most is how I don’t like being treated rudely.

Whether it be accusing me of stuff I didn’t do or mocking me. I don’t like it, and it’s even weirder because I don’t start it. Yet it always turns into an aggressive comment back to me. I usually don’t have the energy for it, and I hate how extra those comments are. What’s the point of being mean?

Now, I’m not saying I’m a saint either, but if it’s with my friends, I don’t think I’ve ever initiated the aggression. I think it may be a misunderstanding. I’m not always going to respond in a happy, bubbly tone, but that doesn’t mean I am angry. I just don’t have enough energy. I wish they were nicer.

I have noticed how off I have been, the slow decline

The days go by slower because I keep looking back. I’m afraid that as soon as I look forward and back again, I’ll already be at the end.

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I Love The Rain

I think out of all of the different types of weather, rain is definitely in the top 3 if not number 1. I really do love powdery snow that looks almost like pillow stuffing as it floats down from the sky. That type of snow is also very light and easy to shovel compared to some of the super wet and heavy snow that makes you feel like you gained 15 pounds of muscle in your arms after just an hour of shoveling. All considered, I think I have decided that rain squeaks out as superior to all other types of weather. My reasonings include, for one, the coziness of the rain. Sitting inside, with a cup of hot something, watching movies and/or listening to music might just be one of the most peaceful experiences one can have. Additionally, if you do want to go outside, it is a very fun experience to frolic around in the rain and not care about how wet you get. If somebody has never had the opportunity to do so, I would highly recommend doing it at least once in your life. Another thing is raindrop racing. This is when two raindrops on a window race to be the first one to drop to the bottom of the window. I loved doing this as a kid, and betting on such events will always and forever be thrilling. My last point lies with the aftermath of the rain. Where I live, I am in a forest surrounded by pine trees, and the smell of pine trees freshly after it has rained is by far my favorite smell to ever exist ever. I can’t even describe it, it’s just so delicious. The one thing I will give rain haters is the fact that if you let your dog out in the rain, at least for my dog, it was a true hassle to dry him off after the fact, and the smell of wet dog is just something else entirely that doesn’t really need to be discussed. Overall, this is one of my opinions that I am very strong about for myself, but I am open to others having a differing opinion and possibly having a friendly discussion about it.

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math

Growing up I used to enjoy math, sometimes I ask myself what happened. Now I dread math and it is definitely my least favorite subject. The answer to my earlier question is that it got harder just like most subjects. I currently am trying to get a math tutor and I want to improve my grade. Every time I do homework I want to cry I don’t get it. I miss when I used to be excited to go to math and learn but now I dread it. I’m planning on meeting with my teacher during my free block and hopefully, this helps. I think I have forever lost the joy I used to feel there are too many steps now and I just get frustrated. The one good thing is that I am most definitely not going to college for anything math-related. I’m trying to find a study group and hopefully, that will help.

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My Chapstick Obsession

Something that I am not sure a lot of people know about me is my chapstick obsession. I have an ungodly amount of chapsticks. My collection in my dorm is literally less than half of what I have at home. It all started in elementary school when my friends and I would give each other chapstick for our birthdays and Christmas. The tradition continued as I went all the way to 8th grade with these people, and every year we would still buy each other a new chapstick on special occasions. My friends and I were so psycho that we would coordinate which matching chapstick(s) we would bring to school that day in our pencil case and use. My traditions even carried into high school a bit, but I will admit I have died down on the obsession. That is mainly due, though, to the fact the one Burt’s Bees from Target is like 5 dollars. I’m sorry, but if I wanted to add a measly 3 to my collection, that would cost 15 dollars. I’m too poor to upkeep my obsession as much as I would like, but the legacy remains and I add when I can.

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dream smart

I wish I remembered my dreams more often. I think dreams are so beautiful no matter if they are happy or sad or scary. I love how dreams only make sense in pictures but not in words because that is how my brain understands things the best. Of course I understand words because we are groomed that way for our whole lives, but I live for seeing and feeling and experiencing. I have always been told that I am not book-smart or even that I’m stupid, but that is okay because I am dream-smart. I understand things by the way they look and move and breathe and feel. I crave to see things in my dreams rather than to read them in books. I think that is why I love to decorate my room. I would rather look at my walls and see the things I love than to look down at my phone or a book or homework. 

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Dummy-blog

Hey, I am a dummy-blog. My role is to absorb the anger of the OVS Editors. My creator has not turned in a single blog over the past three weeks, so I am here to help him. You can hate me, you can despise me, but you can’t ignore me. Besides, I am just a blog – squiggly lines bunched together. Are they even supposed to make any sense, carry any meaning? What if my author just hit the keyboard long enough, without intending anything in particular. Or maybe he even used ChatGPT to get over with the blog and go watch the SuperBowl. Whatever the truth is, it does not matter. My job here is done, and my purpose is thereby fulfilled.

-1 to the blog debt.

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Beauty Standards

In the time we are in now women’s beauty standards are a thing that deeply confuses me. Body image is a growing problem among teenagers with 35-57% of teen girls having an eating disorder. Many teens strive to have a perfect hourglass body in the hope of being more appealing to boys or more content with themselves. In the eyes of boys if girls are too skinny they are anorexic or they should go eat a burger. If they are slightly chubby there are pig and should eat a salad. Clothing is another very controversial thing if they show too much of their body they’re a s**t but if they dress conservatively then it’s assumed they don’t have a good body. Social media plays a huge role in this. Teens scroll on social media and often compare themselves to others who appear to have the perfect body and life. If there is one thing I have learned as a teen it is things usually aren’t as perfect as they are displayed on people’s socials. No one wants to post a picture where they believe they don’t look fit. Photoshop is a thing commonly used by teens and also contributes to eating and body issues. Girls will edit their bodies in the hope of fitting the impossible beauty standards. Then when they look in the mirror and compare it to their edited photo they want to look like the photo and often develop mental health issues such as body dysmorphia.

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Clothes

Today I was shopping and I needed money so I decided to sell some of my old clothes. I sell my clothes through an app called Depop and I sold over 40 pieces this summer but I haven’t listed anything in a while. I have so many clothes my closet at my mom’s and dad’s is full but I always find something new and cute and buy it. I went through my closet today and got rid of so many things. Although a lot of them were cute I feel like I don’t wear them enough. I have so many clothes and I never get a chance to wear some. I took photos and captioned them and so far I have made $82 which doesn’t sound like much but for old clothes that were collecting dust it’s pretty good. I feel so productive after doing that and I can’t wait to spend the money on more clothes.

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Mammoth

This week, luckily I was able to miss half of the school day on Thursday and miss all of Friday to go up to mammoth for the weekend with my friend. Lately school and my life has felt so intense. Taking a break from everything was something that was honestly necessary for my mental health. Coming up here has brought me so much peace. I don’t need to stress about small stupid things in my life and I finally have time to sit with my own thoughts. I have only been here for two days, but I already feel so much better. I feel like I never have time to just relax. Me and my friends friendship is the kind so close that we are able to just sit talk for hours without it taking any energy. Although I have been doing things all day, I still feel like I have so much more energy than I typically do. The past month, I have felt extremely drained and I feel like I am finally pulling myself together again.

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“Gilmore Girls”

I love “Gilmore Girls” so much. I have probably watched it seventeen times. I love the way they talk and I just love them so much. It’s the only show I’ve ever watched that doesn’t feel like work. Logan is my favorite of all the boys. I like Jess a lot but he’s really short so idk. Dean is good but idk I just like Logan the most. Paris really annoys me but even she is smart and interesting. I hate it when she’s dating the professor idk why it just really bothers me. Even though I hate it, the season is still so good. Paris is super weird in the movie sequel but I guess it’s a good plot twist. Loralai is my favorite character. She is hilarious and so much fun. Jason is my favorite guy for her to be honest. I think the way they broke up was super weird but it’s so interesting. I do really like Luke but I don’t know there’s just something about it like there’s something off. Anyways, I would do anything to watch it for the first time again. I hope everyone watches it at some point.

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