Hey I Like My Dad

Yeah I’m going there. I am willing as a teenager to express gratitude, and other positive emotions. Because dang it, we have no predetermined purpose and cynicism has been trending since Franz Ferdinand was shot. While there are many people who would like to make our troubles worse by complaining, complaining and complaining in their everyday life, I would like to do something more helpful to myself by, perhaps, being satisfied with what I have in life. So here is a nice and accurate, but not exhaustive, list of the things I love that my dad does for me, since I know plenty of dads don’t bother with the least of what he does.

  1. He always drives six hours roundtrip to pick me up. It was only this year that he stopped taking days off work just to get me on Fridays, since his company didn’t like he was out of work so often.
  2. He gets me the best snacks. My dad works for H-Mart. That’s the company that tightened its leash on him, so he’s not exactly flowing in cash. But what he is flowing in is coupons. My dad never lacks in giving me free treats, the sorts I can never find in most grocery stores nowadays. I always wait to refill my childhood memories.
  3. He gets free Starbucks too, and always gives them to me.
  4. He gives me strategies for growing up. My dad sometimes felt like the bad cop growing up, especially when my sister and I were used to our mom doting on us. But it turned out parenting is a balance between the old adage of “you can do anything you set your mind to” and telling your children about those who seek to take that away from them. My mom is the dreamspinner, my dad is the postwar cynic. Huh, maybe I have to give those postmodern critics some credit.
  5. He has the oddest sense of humor. It’s not dad jokes exactly, but it’s hard to describe. It’s a little funky, maybe a bit something like out of a Taika Waititi production, which certainly explains my taste in media.

I’ve been worrying about what I could have left in the coming years. I consider myself an average, perhaps lucky person, but luck doesn’t run as far as it used to. I sense that if things were to go haywire there would be many fronts for “these unprecedented times” to attack me on, because I already see others being persecuted for those same things lol. But since half a person’s salt comes from their dad, I’m glad I have his principles and taste in comedy to weather the storm with.

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getting hurt

I’ve only broken one bone in my whole life. I had never had stitches until a few weeks ago. I’ve never had surgery or a cast. Even when I broke my heel I only had crutches for a week and a boot for a few months. When I fell and cut my leg open to the bone I stayed surprisingly calm. It had been a chill day of snowboarding through powder. I didn’t even realize it was cut at first. As soon as I noticed I told my brother’s friend to get ski patrol and called my mom. I told her I was going to the hospital and I needed stitches. Once the ski patrol got there they wrapped my leg. I almost passed out when I first saw it but I didn’t cry. I tried to stay rational because I knew I had to be an adult. The only time I cried was after I had been waiting for 2 hours to get stitches and they started to numb my leg with the needle. It didn’t hurt that bad, it was mostly just scary.

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Bits and Pieces

I hate that love is just a word someone made up. Nobody really knows what it feels like because it’s just a concept. Why can’t we have soulmates that we are drawn to like in movies and books? Falling in love with someone is not like a zing from Hotel Transylvania or a bond like in A Court of Mist and Fury. 

Life is lowkey insane concept if you actually think about it. Like, what do you mean thousands of years happened before I was born, and there will be so many after I die? I always feel crazy when I think about it, but for real, how do we know about the universe? How did we make things like light bulbs and phones out of rocks and dirt?

Is there a word for feeling lonely but also like you don’t want to talk to anyone? Because that’s how I feel all the time. I feel like I’m a pretty social person, but I don’t like being around people, and I also don’t like being alone. I also think that I’m a genuinely happy person, though, so maybe I just like to complain or something.

I have never felt so understood by anyone as I do by my best friend. I care about her so much and I feel like she can see all of the thoughts in my brain. I wish that I could take everything that hurt her upon myself because she doesn’t deserve anything that has happened to her. I am afraid that I will never meet anyone like her ever again so I am grateful for every second we spend together.

It would be so nice if food just didn’t taste like anything. I feel like I would be so much happier because I would eat so healthy. Nothing tastes so good that it makes me second guess that either. I am such a picky eater and I’m sick of choosing the thing I hate the least. I don’t know if that makes sense but basically, I just want to eat healthy and not have to deal with everything tasting and smelling so bad.

I wish I was really good at art. That would be such a cool skill to have.

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were just kids

All I do is study all the time. I need to do something thats not study. I wake up go to class till lunch and then get like an hour break and go back to studying. Then I study during flex and go work out and guess what? I have two more hours of studying to do. How do they fill our time like that? I don’t even have any college apps anymore. I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to add that to my list right now. Sure I like organizing things and taking notes and I don’t mind the homework usually, but seriously enough is enough. At some point, they could just lay off us a little bit right? I’m trying not to stop caring about school and everything but it’s so hard. All I want to do is sleep and my life has never felt so planned out and repetitive. I’m grateful for my education, but it doesn’t always have to feel like work. For once can we just learn something fun and then go home and enjoy our lives?

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more soccer

We had another soccer game and we finally won!! We played Nordhoff JV and we won 8-0. It feels great to win and I really do think our team played well. Pretty much all the people who usually stay on the bench got some time in the game which they typically do. I played defense the whole time and the ball only went onto our side of the field probably less than 5 times. We have another game on Saturday against Cate, which we will most likely lose. If this is the only game we win all year at least it felt good. I like playing defense but midfield is my favorite. Wish the rest of my team luck against Cate this weekend because they might get demolished. I wish I could be there to help the team but I’m also excited for my horse show. I also think if I were to go I would definitely get hurt and it would just suck to go all the way to Carp on a Saturday just to lose.
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Hoodies

Hoodies are my absolute favorite piece of clothing. There’s something about their comfy, soft fabric and oversized fit that feels like a calming warm hug. Whether it’s a chilly school morning or a lazy weekend afternoon, hoodies are perfect for any time. I love their compatibility you can pair them with jeans or, workout clothes, or even use them as a comfy layer while relaxing at home. The front pocket is also super convenient for keeping my hands warm or carrying stuff like my phone or keys. Hoodies come in so many colors, designs, and materials, making it easy to have a different one for every color. No matter the season, a hoodie always makes me feel comfortable. I way rather feel comfortable than anything. Hoodies allow me to be both comfortable and cute. I probably own around 40 hoodies they are a staple in my closet and forever will be.

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Thanksgiving

During the one week break, I will leave school early to fly to New York. This morning, I woke up at 6 in the morning to finish packing the rest of clothes. My ride was booked at 7 in the morning. I had to wake up early since I had to finish laundry. Anyways, the main reason I have come to New York is to study for the SAT, since I only got 1000 to 1100 in the PSAT right now. My goal is to be getting at least 1450 by the end of this intensive training program. I met my english tutor when I was in 1st grade. He taught me english until 6th grade. He has started a company just for helping students with the SAT. He invited me last summer to join this program for this week. It is an eight-day program and it will start tomorrow, Saturday 8:50 in the morning. There will be other 7 people joining. Hopefully all goes well and I can get a better score on the SAT. The schedule for the rest of the 8 days is… starting at 9 in the morning the classes start and they end at 6:30 at night. I will be going to the gym after too to stay in shape for the upcoming basketball tournament right after the break.

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Merchant of Venice as the Newest Member of the Almost Masterpiece Club

A while back, I reviewed all the books I did for required reading in high school, and nearly all of the books in the “almost masterpiece” tier were from Ms. Whipple’s classes. I don’t know how she keeps getting away with this, but I’m adding Merchant of Venice to this tier. (The most I will say about Heart of Darkness is that I put it in the “I respectfully tolerate” tier.)

Before I read Merchant of Venice I actually thought I would put it in the “respectfully tolerate” tier, as I thought it would have aged too poorly for me to be invested in. My only exposure to it was a Jewish youtuber I liked using the play as the ultimate example of a poorly aged classic, so I feared the only thing I would find in it would be garden variety antisemitism.

Though after reading it I suppose I know why we’re learning about it. It’s true, parts of the character Shylock, the main Jewish character in the play, and especially the way other characters treat him that make me cringe. People call Shylock a dog and Lancelet, the most “love to hate” character in the play, outright says he should hang for his religion. But once I read about Lancelet tricking his blind dad into thinking he’s dead, just for the kicks of it, I began to wonder if my disgust towards the characters is meant to be the point.

All of the Christian “heroes” have unsavory qualities, even outside of their antisemitism. Portia mocks the men who want to marry her because they are foreign. Bassanio is a gambler and wannabe gold digger. And what most surprised me was how Jessica, Shylock’s daughter, sells her dead mother’s ring to buy a monkey. As a Jewish convert to Christianity, the other characters act like she is her father’s moral superior, but her actions only make the rest of the cast’s moral standards suspect.

At this point, I can’t help but wonder if Shakespeare was on the better side of history, that he really try to write Shylock as the most sympathetic character in a sea of terrible people. He has some of the best lines, many of which sufficiently call out the injustice of his world, and his villainous actions can’t hold a candle to many of Shakespeare’s tragic heroes. My bread and butter are works where nearly everyone are equally terrible people, as it makes the halfway decent ones stand out all the more. So I can’t help but find that Merchant of Venice scratches my itch, so into the Unofficial Whipple Tier it goes. I don’t think it’s quite on the level of works like Invisible Man, which are stories that I think anyone can get something out of it. I still get that youtuber’s discomfort with Merchant of Venice, so I’m not making this messy story required reading for all of humanity. For all my low expectations I still think it needs an inventive production to bear stomaching for modern audiences.

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Spotify Wrapped

I am so excited for Spotify wrapped this year I have listened to a lot of new music. I don’t know what to expect because I have listened to so many genres. I’ve gone through phases where I on repeat listen to the same songs for months. My favorite part of Spotify wrapped is the playlist that is made with all the songs you listened to the most that year. My Spotify wrapped last year was like all Taylor Swift and I know there’s not gonna be much of that this year. I also love comparing my Spotify wrapped with my friends and seeing which songs we both have. Last year I was in the top 1 percent of Taylor Swift listeners and I have a feeling I will be in the top small percentage of Drake listeners this year. Anyway that’s all when my wrapped comes out I will probably write a blog about it so be excited.

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Lowk nothing

I’m so sick of getting in trouble all the time for no real reason. There has not been one day this week that I haven’t been in trouble for something and I’m so sick of it. On Monday I got laps for being 1 minute late to turn in my phone for study hall. I also got laps for not checking out for Halloween night even though I was explicitly told that I didn’t have to and I let a dorm parent know I was leaving. Then I got laps when my alarm didn’t go off and I was late for breakfast. Why is someone there with a lap sheet every time I mess up? It’s not like I’m deliberately trying to break the rules or inconvenience the dorm staff. There should be a difference between making a mistake and knowing what is expected of you and ignoring it. I have never skipped class or been more than 2 minutes late, I’ve never set out to hurt anyone or myself, I always volunteer and don’t argue, and I’m where I’m supposed to be when I’m supposed to be there. I do well in school and fulfill my duty as a leader by helping others and setting a good example. It doesn’t make me want to keep that up when no matter how good I do I’m still punished. If I’m in trouble the one time I mess up where is my reward for all the times I do the right thing?

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