You are incapable of feeling that twang
Of injustice that is not tied to anything but your skin
And I know I don’t take it as seriously as I should
But it fucking cuts you open from skull to the floor of your stomach when you feel it
Especially when you aren’t used to it
Or when it comes from someone you love
When it’s just the thought of what their beloved racist relative might say
And it cuts through all the layers of not worrying about it
All the social justice work they put in, all the donations
“But sweet grandma would be uncomfortable at the dinner table
It’s so you don’t have to deal with her really,
I’m doing it for you.”
What it comes down to is the fact that it is real for me
That I have to call my dad and ask him what to do
Even though I only have one option and that’s to let it roll off like duck feathers
And quite honestly I think you are just invalidating my feelings, or my experience
And that sucks
Because even though you denounce racism, of course, obviously
It’s only when the victim qualifies, meets your standards.
Do I not qualify for injustice?
Because when it comes crashing through my life
It sure feels like I should