The Last Thing Seen on Earth

(Or “When you’re living in an apocalypse and you’re best friend won’t run away with you to the nearest star system.” Title and some parts TBA, but we’ll publish it a la Dickinson)

The last thing seen on earth

Is our wrought decay

”Do you hear what I say”

How we’re waiting ever for the day of a jammed up dream

No one ever lived how they liked

But don’t just try and catch me

And don’t you cry for those who chose this

When we’re searching ever for the place

Where loss would never be

So please be close to me

Together we’ll rise on that black smoke

And the restless bear will raise her downcast head

“Do you even know her?”

She’s fine now that she can graze her feet

If not for her shattered dreams

”And again, you never saw her?”

You know she couldn’t choose who she got

There’s one for each god up in the sky

Then will you have me rise alone

When no one will be left to count me by stars

The last thing seen on earth:

I swear, it’ll be violets down waving

Goodbye, as thise before us know

No one else would sort our ashes

So why not come with us

Please won’t you come with me

As you are the universe’s cure

When you’re here with me

school and soccer

Okay so I think I was right about soccer, riding and school being too much. I have been feeling so run down lately and I literally have no time to do anything. I also just sprained my ankle at soccer so now I might not be able to ride or do soccer but I’m pretty sure I still have to go to practices and just sit there. Hopefully that will make it easier for me to catch up on school. It is so weird because for the first month of school I felt like I had no work to do and now it feels like it just doesn’t stop. But if I don’t practice then I won’t be playing in our games next week and seriously hate just sitting and watching my team lose and not being able to help. I also have  a feeling we’re going to get a lot of fouls because I don’t think most of the tema know how to do a throw-in or what offsides is. I’m praying we don’t get obliterated by nordoff. 

homework

I honestly don’t mind homework that much. I usually don’t make much of a point to do it either. It usually all just falls into place,but sometimes it ends up not working out which has already happened this year. I seriously despise breakfast club. It is so awful. Like I get it if you have a bunch of missing stuff or if you’re just not turning stuff in but if you get it in by the end of the week I don’t think you should have to go. This happened to me at the beginning of the year and I literally just watched tv the whole time. It really sucked for my mom too because she had weekend duty as well so she had to drive me up there at like 8 then drive me back at 9, then turn around and go back up. I’m so happy she didn’t make me stay. People complain about OVS a lot but I actually do think the way the classes are scheduled is helpful. I usually don’t have any homework once I get home because I’m able to just get it all done during the day. It’s definitely better than lower but I liked the schedule better last year.

pc – https://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2021/04/homeroom-how-much-homework-too-much/618580/

Basketball

Basketball season started this Tuesday. The new coach has started the season with meetings and talks about his past coaching career and what we are going to be working on in the future to be a better team. Last year we gave up too many points because of defensive breakdowns and miscommunication. We gave up around 20-30 points in the first half last year. During the practices this week we have been working on conditioning and defensive game plans. We have been introduced to new gameplays such as 23-jump, 3-2 zone, and 2-3zone. They are all zone defense that we will be using in future games. The new coach seems to have more coaching experience and knows what he is doing. I hope this season we can go undefeated and get back to the CIF playoffs again. Since there is not that much time left too because as a junior in high school there are only 2 years left.

pc: https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.britannica.com%2Fbiography%2FJames-Harden&psig=AOvVaw33cneZAFeCD8PdWwojTQ8n&ust=1730610809929000&source=images&cd=vfe&opi=89978449&ved=0CBQQjRxqFwoTCJDx8uvxvIkDFQAAAAAdAAAAABAE

Fear of procrasination

At the end of my sophomore year, I had to choose my classes for junior year and I had 2 options. I could take normal classes probably have more free time and be less stressed or I could challenge myself to do AP classes, have barely any free time and a lot of stress. Me being the great decision-maker I am I choose to sign up for 5 AP classes. During the summer while I was working on summer assignments I quickly realized 5 APs would simply be to much. Knowing I would have my license and more freedom I didn’t want to spend all my time doing school work, so I dropped one. It is now the end of the first quarter and I’m doing great my social life is thriving and so is my academic life. There is a lingering fear in the back of my head that I will fall behind and my grades will drop but this hasn’t happened yet. I’ve been consistent in all my classes and I really do hope this continues. I have learned to have a positive attitude, even if I feel everything but positive. Changing my outlook on school has made doing my homework and studying so much easier. Today is Halloween and the first day of school I’ve missed all year which is very impressive as last year I missed way to much school.

PC:”Inglewood High School – September” by U.S. Embassy New Zealand/ CC0 1.0

Pintrest

I think a girl’s Pinterest page is a direct representation of who she is as a person. I feel like Pintrest understands me more than anybody in the world. I know that sounds dumb because of the “Pintrest girl” stereotype, but that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about the way that when you scroll through the pictures, you see something that represents every single part of you. I can stop at any point in my feed and on the screen there will be my dream nails, a heart-wrenching quote, an angel wing tattoo, outfit inspiration in my ideal style, and art. It is the most aesthetic and calming thing to scroll and just feel so understood. 

It must be so boring to be a boy. I just can’t imagine what they even do for fun. And like what do they spend their money on? I have so much makeup and little girly things that must have cost me so much money. I also love getting ready in the morning. Imagine waking up and just showering and getting dressed.

Pc: me

I Friggin’ Love Playlists

Everyone always has at least one moment in which they make a decision that completely upturns their life. What makes them notable, normally, is that they begin completely innocuously, like the decision to switch a class, to make small talk with a specific person, however you respond to them, and only later can that decision maker realize how a radical change to their life hinged on that one choice they didn’t see.

I may be able to call what I did around 3 years ago that sort of choice, but its payoff seems just as innocuously debilitating as its trigger. I saw a playlist on youtube, clicked on it, and listened to it while doing homework.

You might be compelled to laugh, but yes, it can be debilitating! Work moves like molasses if I’m not hearing sick beats, and hearing sick beats can make me less able to focus on what I need to. I’m not sure at this point if my habit slows me down or is the only way I can set my mind to anything vaguely smelling of labor. During regular classes it feels like I have to do anything else just to not lose my mind to the clouds, but nearly all teachers seem to misinterpret multitasking as a character flaw of the youth. I’ve become a Gen Z stereotype, technology has completely divorced my attention span from what organized society finds acceptable.

New Spotify & Apple Music Playlist Categories in Chartmetric

PC: Chartmetric

Weekend

This weekend was a long weekend with 4 days off because of family weekend. I started each day with running pie everyday to get in shape with an average pace of 8 minutes per mile and the total time of 22 minutes. There weren’t that many trips this weekend besides the collection on Saturday night and Universal Studios on Monday. On Friday I watched the World Series with a few friends. Freddie Freeman’s walk-off was crazy. It was a really relaxing weekend. I finally got a good rest and am getting ready for the school next week. On Saturday we went to Dick’s sporting goods to get some basketball equipment such as compression shorts and KT tape for my knee. We also got some golf stuff like the new released Taylor-made golf balls, TP5X. We went to get food at the Korean barbecue place for dinner afterwards. Today we went to Universal Studios, we went on most of the main rides except Jurassic park because it was closed. However, It was a fun trip especially with all my friends together too.

pc: https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.usatoday.com%2Fstory%2Fsports%2Fmlb%2F2024%2F10%2F26%2Ffreddie-freeman-grand-slam-video%2F75861110007%2F&psig=AOvVaw1ze1P9VfuD43b03-dSAY5E&ust=1730261516180000&source=images&cd=vfe&opi=89978449&ved=0CBUQjRxqFwoTCMD_hv7csokDFQAAAAAdAAAAABAE

soccer

I’ve been thinking about starting soccer. I played pretty much my whole life and I miss it. The whole reason I quit gymnastics is because I didn’t think I would have time or energy to do two sports. Especially after school games and leaving class early for games I’m a little worried I wont be able to keep up. Don’t get me wrong I love soccer and I love riding but I think it will also feel like i’m not a whole part of the team either because I will have to miss some practices and maybe even games for riding because that will be my priority. I think I’m still going to do it anyways though because cross training has always helped me in riding and gymnastics. I also heard that we have 3 games our second week of practice which sucks because I won’t even be there for our first week of practice which is this week. So I might die but wish me luck.

PC – https://www.vermontpublic.org/programs/2016-09-16/why-is-soccer-called-soccer-instead-of-football

Football

We finished the football season with a bad loss to the first seed team in our league. Due to my injury, I finally recovered the day before the game. I was not able to be in the starting lineup because I missed 2 weeks of practice. Anyways, I got back in the game during the first half, at 4 minutes. I then played the rest of the game as the cornerback. I had multiple tackles but no picks or interceptions. After the first half the score was already 35-0. I tried to keep working with a few teammates, but I could tell most of the people already gave up after the first half. It seems like they do not care about the game at all. I cared about this particular game not just because I had a great performance during the first half, but also because It is the last game for the seniors. The last game to play with them. However, it was a great season overall. Although we didn’t finish the season with a good record, I did have lots of fun with the team in these 2 months.

pc: https://www.google.com/imgres?q=football&imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fmedia.wired.com%2Fphotos%2F5a3af5179b5b7950644810b9%2Fmaster%2Fw_2560%252Cc_limit%2Ffootball-TA.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.wired.com%2Fstory%2Fstreaming-football-games-is-harder-than-it-looks%2F&docid=BILyctbQ5hnHOM&tbnid=vllwQqLksEfduM&vet=12ahUKEwiWidip1ZmJAxXBLUQIHR4uJ1wQM3oECGcQAA..i&w=2400&h=1800&hcb=2&ved=2ahUKEwiWidip1ZmJAxXBLUQIHR4uJ1wQM3oECGcQAA