I surf with more passion than I’ve ever felt before, but I’d certainly not consider myself good. It’s the scariest thing I’ve ever encountered, walls of water like moving mountains, foamy white water like a powerful avalanche, a board which goes from your greatest ally to greatest enemy the moment it is freed from your hands and feet. Is the feeling of a wave worth the pain of falling? Often, yeah it is, small waves, no biggie, a couple seconds of being underwater (burr), and then you paddle back out and try again. But when the waves become giants and the board a brute force weapon, that fall feels like life or death. I remember going out on a day with waves far beyond my skill set, Goliath and Polyphemus in the flesh. Before even paddling for a wave a set came in, the first wave blocked the sun as it groaned past me, the second feathered as I crested its peak desperately paddling to the outside, and the third I was not so lucky. The avalanche hit me, immediately tearing the board from my hands, the wave now groaning on top of me thrashing my body like a ragdoll in a washing machine. My last thought was “I really don’t want to die”, and then, it was over. The wave passed and adrenaline pulled out beyond the impact zone. So what pushes me to surf in water like this, maybe I just like the adrenaline but I think it’s because putting myself in places beyond my skill set and comfort, where I am deeply imperfect, has shaped who I am.
Tag: waves
More Waves
I probably had one of my rawest encounters with the ocean on the Santa Cruz trip. On Thursday the group hiked to Smugglers cove (Liam and I ran), this large round bay faces south, unlike Scorpion Ranch which faces northeast where we spend most of the trip. What’s important is not the bay itself but that hundreds of miles south of the bay a hurricane was(still is) active off of Baja. Hurricanes and storms such as this one generate 90% of swells worldwide, and this storm is no exception. For days large lumps of water have traveled hundreds of miles along the coast bringing warm water and very good waves to Mexico and California. The swell and bay direction created a very interesting experience in the water. Large closeout walls slammed into shores in sets of 4 to 5 waves with faces that peaked (to my best guess) at 7 or 8 feet. Liam, Zimo, and I got the opportunity to swim out into these waves ducking and swimming under them and even catching the smaller ones with our bodies, or the boogie board in Liam’s case. This experience is easily one of the coolest I’ve had in the water because of the lack of wind and large swell, the waves were perfectly clean giants and they were absolutely gorgeous. Each set was a new masterpiece of nature and each wave defined the ocean’s beauty. I love waves.
Dawn Patrol
Today, for the first time, I decided to join Dawn Patrol. Dawn Patrol is a small group of students at my school who head to the beach at 6:15 on Sunday morning to learn how to surf.
Now, I’ve been telling myself for years that I wanted to learn how to surf. It’s always been something that fascinates me. I love movies about surfing, and I think it’s an amazing skill to have.
I’ve actually been surfing twice – once with a family friend when we lived in San Francisco, and then once when we were in Cabo. But those times I never did more that ride the whitewater to the shore. Today, I went past the point where the waves were breaking, which was a brand new experience for me.
It didn’t exactly go as planned.
As it turns out, when you’re about to be hit by a wave and you’re my size (about 5’2″), the wave looks a heck of a lot bigger. It’s also a lot easier to be tossed around. I had a really hard time getting past the point where the waves were breaking, but once I did, it was amazing.
I didn’t ride very many waves. But the amazing part of the trip for me was sitting on my surfboard in the ocean, feeling the swells come up and down underneath me, and watching the sunrise and the fog clear away. It was an incredible feeling.
I did only catch two waves, once after I got out, and then again when I was ready to go back in. I didn’t stand up, in fact I did the exact opposite and got tossed around quite a bit. On my last wave, the board hit me in the face while I was underwater, which wasn’t very pleasant.
Overall though, the trip was worth it. I may not have made huge progress, but at least I got out there and started to get a feel for it. And watching the sun rise was perfect.
I definitely plan on going again. Maybe after I catch up on my sleep though.

Underwater Photography
“Buoyed by water, he can fly in any direction – up, down, sideways – by merely flipping his hand. Under water, man becomes an archangel.” –Jacques Cousteau
There is nothing natural about breathing underwater. But when SCUBA diving, the world seems to fall away. Nothing exists but the cool blue-green and the shafts of light that pierce water. Problems vanish and anxieties melt, swirling past in the constant tide.
One can never possibly find the words to describe diving. The sound of bubbles, as they rush through your regulator, whirling past your ears and up to the sun, is a low, muted gurgle. Fog coils around the corners of your mask no matter how well you defog before descent. Everything is tinted blue and glows softly, flickering as the surface churns. The weight of your gear is sweet, familiar, even loving. Each fin cycle is soothing and smooth.
Existence is different down under the sea. It is simpler and yet, electrifying. Every sense is heightened, every sensation, magnified. The only way to bring it back to the surface is through film. Underwater photography is my specialty.
This summer I got my advanced SCUBA photo certification through Naui at CIMI.
If you’ve ever used a camera on land (which I’m sure most of you have) you probably know it’s difficult to get a good shot. The lighting is always tricky, your hands might be shaking, the composition is off, your subject isn’t cooperating. Think of all those volatile factors and then imagine that underwater.
Light exists differently beneath the surface. Objects appear about a third larger than their actual size and some colors such as red, yellow and orange are much subtler underwater. The water is constantly pushing and pulling you around and if you’re moving, so is your camera. A majority of the time you cannot set up your pictures, you must simply photograph whatever presents itself to you. There is no room instruction or preference, each shot is a gift given by the sea. Often the subject will be hiding, moving or swimming exactly where you don’t want it to. So I think it’s pretty clear that this kind of photography is a little tricky.
Personally, I enjoy working with macro lenses (close up) in SCUBA photo. The amount of and control you have is greater because you can decide how much or how little you want in the shot more effectively. Wide-angle lenses and fish-eyes are used for larger marine life; two problems with these lenses are: one, you may or may not see any big stuff. And two, there is NO way to control how the big stuff will (or will not) pose for the shot.
Algae shots are the easiest and sometimes the most radical. These photos are typically a point-and-click type deal. They will turn out or they won’t. I took this picture in 2010:


