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College pt. 5 mil

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Going to college genuinely terrifies me, not like it terrifies everyone else. When I think of college, a huge drop happens in my stomach. Don’t get me wrong Im excited, I have a Pinterest for my dorm room and stuff. However, I don’t do well with change, and I think that’s something I need to work on with myself. I have a system of how things are now, where I’m surrounded by everyone I love, and they are just a few steps away. When I go to college, that will be different. I’m worried about how well I can live without my mom, and I know this sounds childish, but she has been my person through everything that I have gone through. I’m scared to be away from her, because this is a new chapter in my life where I won’t have her around as much anymore, and that brings tears to my eyes as I write this. Also, I think that I’m overthinking this way too much. But at the same time, I’m scared, and I’m sad. I think about this so often, but I also understand that I’m getting ahead of myself a bit. I spiral and think about how life is so short, and then we die, and that’s just it. (unless you believe in heaven and hell, which I don’t) So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m nervous, scared, excited, and sad to see and start this new chapter of my life.

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Blurb and Thoughts

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I swear, when I don’t have a blog to write, I have some good ideas, but when it’s time actually to write one, my brain blanks. I would always do another movie review, but I don’t really have one in mind right now. Ten Things – I can’t think of ten things to like or hate at the moment. 

I also have to make it 150 words. Although I find it difficult, once I really get into my blog, I sometimes exceed the word limit. Like right now, the more words I can think about, the higher my word count gets, so all I need to do is think of words to use, like supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. Now that’s a fun word to say. 

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, I just searched up what it means. It does have a meaning; I thought it was a fun word to say that came out of a Disney movie. Anyway, I have reached and surpassed the word limit.

Stressful Two Weeks

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Imagine this.. you’re having a wonderful day. The flowers are swaying in the light gusts of wind, the sun is shining, and there’s no cloud in the sky, and it seems like a good day! That’s until this guy comes up, a very nice-looking man, and proceeds to take a wood plank out and hit you on the head a few times, Looney Tunes style.

Well, not actually. Yet, it seems like the guy was nice, but he ended up hurting you. That guy resembles the two weeks before break. Sure, you were a bit uneasy about this guy walking up to you, but you didn’t know he was gonna hit you several times.

There is one week left before the break. Last week? Last week sucked until the weekend. Along with this week, or what the future holds. 2 tests in your hardest classes on Thursday, and 3 easy on Friday.

I’d call that a double whammy, but considering last week had a lot of tests, too… jeez, it’s only gonna get better till break.

Still, these few days might be the longest of my life. It’s okay, my bed awaits me each time I get home. And all next week.

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Forgotten Holidays

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When I think of holidays, I mostly think of more major holidays like Christmas, Thanksgiving, and Halloween, but I don’t bring any attention to underground holidays. I would consider underground holidays to be Groundhog Day on February 2nd, St. Patrick’s Day on March 17th, and even Easter on April 5th, even though I celebrate. I think that the more popular holidays are automatically brought to mind because they are most people’s favorites and are mostly talked about on social media. A favorite underground holiday of mine is Cinco de Mayo because even though I don’t celebrate, in Spanish class, we usually do an activity that’s not academic. I think the major holidays are so major because they come with seasons and usually have people excited leading up to them. Once the holidays are over, everyone I’ve talked to feels like they already miss the excitement of an upcoming holiday, and the actual holiday is going by so fast. Sometimes I believe that the excitement for an upcoming holiday is better than the actual holiday itself because you never know what to expect, especially on Christmas. There are also some holidays that I personally have never heard of, like World Sword Swallowers Day, which honors professionals who can swallow swords and the few people who still practice it. I don’t even know where you would have to begin to learn how to swallow a sword, but I guess it shows that some holidays are so sneaky we didn’t even know to celebrate them.

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The Wrong ICE is Melting

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Things are happening right before our eyes. I think it’s important to understand that no matter your political party, you are insanely ignorant if you can sit on your ass and act like there is a justifiable reason for Immigration and Customs Enforcement agents to act as they have been acting towards anyone of color. People are being murdered, SA’d, and brutally abused under the law that we so “love and support”. I don’t support it.

We as a nation continue to take half a step forward and 25 steps back, and if you can’t understand that, you are part of the problem. There is such blatant racism, pedophilia, sexism, and plain ignorance in our government, and the reason people support the same people who are corrupting our government is that they are being told lies. These lies are targeted towards a specific audience that will believe these things.

People just started disapproving of our president because it affected them directly. The fact that people can sit down and acknowledge there is a problem, but not care because it doesn’t affect them directly, is insane to me.

I’m writing this blog out of anger. I’m angry because we as a country are better than this. We are covering our unlawful action by unimportant new and that makes me angry. Innocent black people are being hanged in georgia and not a single mainstream news network has reported on it. This is just one of the things that struck me.

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College realizations

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Now that it’s time to start looking at college, I have realized how much I want to go to a college in California. It is also kinda stressing me out, even though I still have a long time till I have to start applying. It feels crazy how fast these last 3 years have gone by, and even though I’m excited to go to college, I’m still scared to get ready to move away to college. The only other places I would maybe want to apply to are Hawaii, but I don’t think I would ever go. However, this summer, my parents might take me to visit. The top colleges I want to attend are Pepperdine, UCSB, and UCSC. I really want to go somewhere near the beach, and I would never wanna go anywhere other than California because after living here my whole life, I don’t think I could leave and go somewhere else that’s colder or has no ocean. 

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Clavicular

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Recently, on my TikTok for You page, I’ve been getting a lot of videos about the guy called Clavicular, who looks maxes. He seems really scary, but he is kind of valid. He has done tons of injections, and something called bone smashing, where he hits himself in the face with a hammer, and I thought he was just really psychotic, but somehow everything he has done has juristically changed his appearance. The second he reached his “ascension”, which is reaching his prime, he blew up. He was kicked out of college because of his looksmaxing, and even though his life felt ruined in the moment, he became successful for looksmaxing. His career is just based on rating people and trying to get his rating up, but I’m lowkey really invested. His next part of his ascension is his double-jaw surgery, and I hope it goes well and that he doesn’t botch his face.

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Sleep

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I love sleep, but no matter how much I get of it, I’m always tired at school. That may just be a me problem, but I don’t know. The feeling of being tired is so good yet so bad at the same time. When I’m about to go to sleep, being tired is the best thing, but when I’m tired and I can’t sleep, it’s the worst. Aside from actually sleeping, nighttime is the best time of day. When you look up at the sky, the stars radiate throughout the whole night. Every star is unique in its own way, also the constellations are beautiful. The fact they we are just on a floating rock in the middle of nowhere is so crazy to me. Anyway, back to the original point, sleep is amazing. Everything about and surrounding it is amazing. Sleep rejuvenates my body, most of the time, except for when classes are boring. But sleep is great, it’s necessary for everyone, and is the best feeling ever. I love love LOVE sleep.

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Things that make me happy

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Recently, I have been so unmotivated. Senioritis has hit me a little too hard. I spent weeks slaving away on my college applications, and it drained the life out of me. School has sucked everything out of me. Homework, capstones, work, social life, and everything else are actually exhausting. But I have still found a motivation to stay happy, so here’s a list of things that do make me happy. 

  1. Making my bed in the morning makes my life feel more put together and clean.
  2. Sleeping in after a long week of school.
  3. Hot pilates, so relaxing and calms me down
  4. My cat because she’s so cute.
  5. Going out to eat, nothing beats getting good food from a nice restaurant with my friends.
  6. Watching a good show after a long day at school.
  7. Burning hot showers.
  8. My water bottle keeps me hydrated
  9. shopping
  10. Music on the way to school.
  11. Driving to school in the morning 

These are things that keep me grounded and happy during such an overwhelming time.

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November 1st

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I don’t think I’ve written more in my life than in the past few weeks. I had eight college deadlines on November 1st, and I decided to complete my work at the last minute. I just submitted half of my college applications, and I’m honestly done. I feel like the amount of work students do building up to applying to college is enough. Going through a tedious process of reviewing everything I’ve done with my life over the past eighteen years, with a word limit, feels impossible. I’m trying to manifest that I will get into lots of colleges, but I’m also not delusional. I missed one of the best weekends of the year, sick and doing college work, and I just hope that I get good karma from this. On top of all of this college work, I keep forgetting that I actually have school work, but that seems more like a tomorrow problem.

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