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Ugly Mornings

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I am so tired. I have no free time during the school week so I like to make the most of my weekends. This is where my dilemma arises. I stay up late on the weekends to get the most out of my futile untethered days. I know it will come back to bite me during the school week. I never want the day to end because the next will only creep closer to Monday.

When Monday morning finally comes, my long nights catch up to me. My eye bags are swollen and discolored. No amount of stretching soothes the aching in my back. The cold world awaits me right outside of my blanket that heats me like a freshly baked loaf of bread. One alarm goes off, then the next, and then the next. I hit snooze until the last second.

When the last second forces my eyes open, I sit up and slide my legs down the side of my bed. The hard floor meets my sore familiar feet like a deceitful friend. The blanket slides off and the cool air envelops me as goosebumps run across my skin. I stare into the darkness with drooping eyes. I cannot fathom the fact that I am about to start my day and go to school.

I open my curtains and the harsh light pours in. A new day, a new school week, and a new set of sleep deprived mornings. I hate being tired on the weekdays but I would hate it even more if I missed out on the freedom of my weekends. I’ll have to keep sacrificing my under eyes and sleep for my freedom.

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Senior Slump

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Junior year is famed with being the hardest year of high school. Since I finished my junior year I’ve been ecstatic to go back to something easier with my senior year. I was lied to.

Difficult schoolwork and intense memorization. Sports until the sun sets and games until my eyes droop. Senior Capstone and overwhelming deadlines. College essays and applications galore that I can’t keep track of. I’ve never been so overwhelmed before in my life.

At the end of my junior year I was giving up and not putting in good effort whatsoever. I assumed that the summer would regenerate my motivation like it had every other year, but no. I feel the exact same as I did last May. I go through the motions but don’t truly memorize work. I participate in sports at the expense of my energy and time spent on schoolwork. I procrastinate the Capstone because I keep telling myself I have five months to work. I write my college essays and fill out my applications. Is it good enough? Will all of my hard work finally pay off?

I don’t know how my senior year will play out yet but I do know it will be difficult. I hope to get back into the groove and stay consistent. I also hope that people will stop lying about junior year being the hardest because senior year surpasses it drastically.

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Sun, waves, and sand

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Most weekends when the sun is out I drive to the beach. I set up my towel, put on sunscreen, and braid my hair. I lay in the heat and let the sun bite my skin. I get so pale in the winter, so I cherish the sunny days and tan skin I get in the hot months. Sweat beads on my forehead and my skin feels like it’s on fire. I get up from my sandy towel, and run as fast as I can to the water. The scorching sand feels like glass cutting into my feet, but the cool ocean water brings me relief. Usually I don’t swim because its such a hassle to have to then wash my salty hair and sticky skin. Recently though, the heat has been unbearable. On this day, I dive into the water letting the salt dry out my skin and tangle my hair. I feel the sand crabs wriggle under the sand as the water recedes. After splashing and diving for a while, I make my way back to my towel. I let the sand coat my wet feet, and I let the water sink into my refreshed skin. I sit on my towel while my soaked hair drips onto my legs. I’m relaxed and happy. Once I actually get into the water, I never seem to care about my salty hair or sticky skin; I don’t feel as dirty as I expected. The longer I lay the hotter I get, and I prepare to run to the water and do it all over again.

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