I’ve been doing okay.

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Honestly, I have been, or I’d like to believe I have. I think I have. At this point, I’m not sure who I’m trying to convince.

I feel like I have a lot on my plate a lot coming up, but I know I just have to take care of them one by one. Senior pages, scholarships, final auditions, songs a lot of cultural events. Most of those things I’ve put on myself but I don’t know I guess I’m just trying to prove something. Like I want to leave my mark, and hopefully be remembered. The best way to put this is a quote from one of my favorite movies.

“I think I have this thing where I need everybody to think I’m the greatest, the quote-unquote Fantastic Mr. Fox. And if people aren’t knocked out and dazzled and slightly intimidated by me, I don’t feel good about myself.” – Fantastic Mr. Fox by Wes Anderson.

Of course, I don’t need people to be knocked out, dazzled, or intimidated but I at least want to be memorable. Anyways I’ve been doing better in track. I ran pie without walking, and although my legs are in so much pain it feels good to work hard.

I’ve been standing up for myself more, even if it scares me. Ive been building boundaries and I’ve defended myself more. I’m learning to not take everything to heart because its a waste of time. Its harder with closer friends, and while on your period.

School is coming to an end, and summer is looking to be very fun. College desicisons are almost here, but its all coming at the same time which is a little nerve racking. I just hope I make it, I just want to graduate.

All this to say, even with troubles and bad parts i’ve been doing okay.

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p.s. The pic looks sad but its the scene with the quote also its very pretty 🙂

weeding

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I had field studies today. I hadn’t been on one yet, so I thought I had eluded field studies, but I was wrong. Yesterday, I got an email telling me I had field studies today. I walked down the hill to the creek today, thinking about how silly it is that we replace real classes with field studies. However, we got there and I pulled weeds for the entire time, and I really appreciated it. It was mindless work, but I enjoyed it. I would have enjoyed it more if there were no ants and strange bugs, but I worked around them. I also saw a snail! It was green. So the “wildlife” canceled out I guess, because the ants and weird bugs made it worse, but the green snail and the worms made it better. I was happy to have weeded and gotten my hands dirty instead of having a long block of English, not that English is bad but weeding is better because I really like weeding.

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Pet Peeves Part 1

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Today, I’m going to talk about some of my pet peeves. First off, I think the thing that upsets me the most is slow walkers, ESPECIALLY when I cannot get around them. Kinda going along with that are people who scuff their feet on the ground. Like please just pick up your feet it’s not that hard to walk like a normal person and not make my ears bleed every time you unnecessarily scrape your soles on the floor. Next, I absolutely hate burning my tongue on hot drinks. My tongue does not have a high heat capacity, so this happens more than it should probably. I might be a little bit hypocritical for the next one, but people who make such annoying pet voices really upset me. Most times it’s ok, but people just have very specifically horrible ones that also put my ears in pain. Next, when you are making a smoothie and it doesn’t blend seamlessly and it takes way too much effort and stirring and adding of liquids to get it all blended up. Like it doesn’t have to be that hard, please just work the first time. This list is getting a little long, and I can definitely make a part 2 for next week, so I will end here today with small dogs. Don’t get me wrong, I have met some very nice small dogs before who were angels, but the vast majority of small dogs are vicious demons who only have an aptitude for giving me scars and trauma. Big dogs are far superior.

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How my break was

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It has already been six weeks since the end of Christmas break. This year, I have been busy with many things and time seems to be passing faster than usual. This makes me feel that I need to plan things more systematically. I spent this winter vacation with my friend in LA. We made strawberry cheesecake for her father’s birthday celebration. The cake has two layers: a jelly and a cheesecake made with strawberry fruit and lemon juice. It was hard to get the strawberries to float when I laid them on top and poured the juice over them. However, after an hour of struggle, we managed to complete the cake. We were very happy that her father was so pleased. We had a great time with them by treating them to Japanese food. Then we went to see a university during the vacation. I was surprised at the scale of the place, which I usually only see in pictures, when I actually walked around. The school building was very big and it motivated me for future applications. I am looking forward to seeing what kind of path I will choose and which university I will go to next year, and at the same time I am filled with anxiety. After visiting the university, we went to Korea Town to eat our long-sought-after Ganjanggaejang. I was very happy because it was the thing I was looking forward to the most during this vacation. I am now less than a hundred days away from the end of this school year, so I want to spend my time in a meaningful way. I am looking forward to what I will do on my next vacation.

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Another break

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I just arrived back at school from break, but this time it feels a little bit harder to be back and away from my home and parents. My best friend came home with me this break, and we ate a lot of good food, once again! We had all sorts of things from pastries to ganjang gejang to shabu shabu, which my friend made for my family. It was also my dads fifty sixth birthday which we celebrated by baking him a cake, which was a strawberry cheesecake with a clear gelatin topping which was delicious and cute. I wasn’t actually able to be with my dad on the day of his birthday as he was out of town, but I’m happy we got to celebrate before that. Overall this break was very relaxing, and it’s time for me to look forward to the next one!

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drivers liscense

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I think everyone needs to get their driver’s license. There’s so many people recently that have been telling me that they don’t have their license, but having it is so freeing. The first time I drove by myself was such a new feeling. It’s so convenient to just be able to drive yourself wherever you want instead of having to bike or walk. And the first time you drive your friends is so much fun. I just had my first drive by myself and my first drive with friends last week during break and it made me realize how much fun it is. I guess it is really hard to get your license in California, but it’s so worth it to go through the course. I was super lucky to get mine in Oregon because you don’t have to do any drivers ED, just to study by yourself a little bit. Everyone says driving gets boring after a while but I can’t imagine that right now.

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My first driving

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I drove on the road for the first time in my life this past Monday. The first time I drove a car was this past winter break when I circled the parking lot with my mom. It was a very short drive, but my mom was screaming that she was going to be killed. I thought to myself that the passenger in the car must be many times more scared than the driver. My parents told me to go to the second driving school after I returned to my home country because it is much easier to get a driver’s license in the U.S. than in my home country. Driving on the road for the first time was scarier than I had imagined. The scariest part is when a car follows behind you. I was worried that I might cause trouble for the people behind me because I was driving at half the speed limit for the first time. I finally got the hang of it about 20 minutes after I started. I was still very nervous about driving but it was super fun. I am already looking forward to my next driving lesson. I can’t wait to get my driver’s license so I can go out driving with my family and friends.

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Packing

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I have always had a huge issue when it comes to packing. Most people would say that I am an over-packer but I believe that I am just extremely prepared. My friends and family have always hated on me for the amount of things I pack to sleep over at someones house or to go on vacation. I am a very high maintenance person when it comes to having all my necessities with me at all times and I feel like I shouldn’t get judged for that. This week, I am going on a week long cruise to Mexico with my best friend and her family. Her mom said that we are only allowed to bring a carry on suitcase onto the boat. I would be able to pack a carry on suitcase if I really put my mind to it and if I knew I had a laundry machine but on the cruise, to wash an individual item like a t shirt, it costs six dollars and to wash one hoodie, it costs twelve dollars. There is no way that I am spending that much money just to wash my clothes. I have never been on a cruise before so I have no idea what the weather will be at night and since we have multiple stops, its not like I can just go to the weather app and figure out the temperature especially for in the middle of the sea at night. I am so stressed out because I’m so used to pack a large suitcase that I can fit all my things in. I have no idea what to pack and I am dreading the idea of not being able to pack everything I need and having to wear dirty clothes.

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A paper, a pen, a lamp, and a table

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for Fred Alvarez

A paper, a pen, a lamp, and a table.

How long will it take me to write my animal fable?

What am I writing? What am I saying? 

A poem – since my animal story is still not on the table

I am not asking for mercy 

Not begging extensions 

Give me an F!!!

I shout in contention. 

Is the problem in craft or is it in craftsmen?

“You have a week, now go write the story”

I’ll need one more

And then one after that

Well, what d’you expect? I’m not a printer

I am a writer and thus let me write

Will it take months, will it take years?

Nobody knows and neither do I

But one thing is certain with all this procession

I’d rather be damned than sell my soul to the trade of summarization.

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O Come, All Ye Faithful

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It’s Friday. The congregation is gathered at Calculus AB. Mr. Kim is preaching about the virtue of integrals The first fundamental theorem of calculus says: Thou shalt obtain the antiderivative F as the integral of f. The second fundamental theorem of calculus says: Thou shalt subtract function f(a) from f(b) to evaluate the integral from a to b. Mr. Kim shares his testimony – how Mathematics transformed his life and saved him from ignorance. Everyone bows their heads in accord, but will they follow the Word and change their ways?

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