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I Miss You

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When I say I miss you, it’s not you that I miss.  I just miss the memories and I miss what we had. I miss the beach and Mongolian BBQ.  I miss all the things I will never experience again.

Photo Credit: art-en-provence.com

When I say I want you back, you have to understand I don’t want who you are now.  I want who you used to be and the way we used to be.

When I say I love you, I hope you know I am not in love with you anymore.  I just have love for you.  I want the best for you and hope you’re happy, but I don’t look at you and become filled with happiness and love anymore.

I hate when I hear bad things about you.  I hate to see you struggling with something, but most of all I hate that we don’t even smile at each other anymore.

I will always care, even if I don’t want to be with you.

I could never say any of this out loud to anyone, so I hope you read this and know who you are.  Maybe, one day, we could go back to that beach and be happy again.

Not A Love Poem

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This might sound like a love poem.  But it’s not.  This is dedicated my former roommate and one of my closest friends.  I miss you.

Somewhere

Somewhere far beyond the sea
I know that you are there
Still waiting up for me
On that sun-drenched island cove
Bathed in golden light
Dreaming of your arms
Where once my heart took flight
You held me through the day
Watched the waves crashing on the shore
Our ears rang loud with laughter
Our cheeks were sore with smiles
The moments rife with feeling
Nothing held a speck of guile
Safe and trusting arms
Always open wide
We had no need for fear
No even of riptides
Days full of joyous sunshine
Nights covered in blazing stars
My life was cut by beauty
So deep it left long scars
We never though it’d end
Always thought that we’d have more
The island air so sweet
The days so long and warm
But the day we had to leave
I felt my heart, so torn
Now, not a single day goes by
That you’re not in my heart
No hour leaves me peace
Without tearing me apart
And since I left that island
Since I left your strong embrace
I’ve never seen such beauty
On another person’s face
My love will stay with you
Now and forevermore 
That fierce hot flame of summer
Always burning in my core

Sunrise over Toyon Bay: Dawn Drumming, 2011