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College pt. 5 mil

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Going to college genuinely terrifies me, not like it terrifies everyone else. When I think of college, a huge drop happens in my stomach. Don’t get me wrong Im excited, I have a Pinterest for my dorm room and stuff. However, I don’t do well with change, and I think that’s something I need to work on with myself. I have a system of how things are now, where I’m surrounded by everyone I love, and they are just a few steps away. When I go to college, that will be different. I’m worried about how well I can live without my mom, and I know this sounds childish, but she has been my person through everything that I have gone through. I’m scared to be away from her, because this is a new chapter in my life where I won’t have her around as much anymore, and that brings tears to my eyes as I write this. Also, I think that I’m overthinking this way too much. But at the same time, I’m scared, and I’m sad. I think about this so often, but I also understand that I’m getting ahead of myself a bit. I spiral and think about how life is so short, and then we die, and that’s just it. (unless you believe in heaven and hell, which I don’t) So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m nervous, scared, excited, and sad to see and start this new chapter of my life.

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Quentin Tarentino’s Underrated Gem – Death Proof

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Quentin Tarantino is known for a plethora of films, most famously Kill Bill and Reservoir Dogs. But that’s not to say those are his only good films.

Over break, I was yearning for a movie. A Tarentino movie, to be exact. That’s when I look at my ‘To Watch’ list in my notes app, and I see the movie Death Proof.

I look up what the movie is about. “A stuntman who kills women with a modified car labeled as ‘Death Proof'”. That… doesn’t seem interesting. Well, not to me at least, since I’m not into cars that much.

Well, to my surprise, I really liked this movie. The music, the visuals, the makeup, the comedy, and the actors. Despite being considered a “flop” to Tarentino, this movie is held very close to my heart.

I recommend it to people who are into cars. I didn’t understand half the things that the actors were talking about when they were talking about cars. Whoops.

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Stressful Two Weeks

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Imagine this.. you’re having a wonderful day. The flowers are swaying in the light gusts of wind, the sun is shining, and there’s no cloud in the sky, and it seems like a good day! That’s until this guy comes up, a very nice-looking man, and proceeds to take a wood plank out and hit you on the head a few times, Looney Tunes style.

Well, not actually. Yet, it seems like the guy was nice, but he ended up hurting you. That guy resembles the two weeks before break. Sure, you were a bit uneasy about this guy walking up to you, but you didn’t know he was gonna hit you several times.

There is one week left before the break. Last week? Last week sucked until the weekend. Along with this week, or what the future holds. 2 tests in your hardest classes on Thursday, and 3 easy on Friday.

I’d call that a double whammy, but considering last week had a lot of tests, too… jeez, it’s only gonna get better till break.

Still, these few days might be the longest of my life. It’s okay, my bed awaits me each time I get home. And all next week.

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2nd semester

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I would always get told that the second semester of sophomore year is way harder than the first semester, but I wouldn’t listen. I thought that there would be no change and that I could get through it. I should’ve listened because I’m just now realizing that it’s harder in all aspects. The quizzes are more difficult and much more often than last semester. Theres not many assignments, but they’ve gotten more complex since winter break. I catch myself forgetting about quizzes, and when I do remember to study, I have barely any motivation to. Compared to last semester, units have flown by with nonstop action, with no time to breathe in between. At the end of the day, I complete all my assignments on time and usually end up studying for exams. I was in a flow state last semester because I had finally gotten the hang of it, but now I feel like I’ve been set back. I’m not trying to complain about how the work is too hard, and I can’t catch a break, but it’s a fact that this semester is definitely a change I wasn’t fully ready for. Somehow, certain aspects of my life keep slipping from my mind, even when I have so much time to think back. Hopefully, I can get back into my flow state and redeem myself, but I’m warning any upcoming sophomores to be aware of the shift.

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Complacent Divided

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Hating is easy. Complaining about inconvenience is easy. Antagonizing the world is easy. Destroying in a tantrum is easy. But regardless of whether the hate is justified, it is in human nature to keep pursuing ease once exposed to and comfortable with it. And yet ease is rarely what we need.

Overcoming is hard. Fixing what’s flawed is hard. Understanding one another is hard. Giving the benefit of the doubt is hard. But recently, it seems as though people have become complacent with ease.

More than ever, I believe that we need to be more patient and willing to cooperate with one another. As much as I struggle with social interaction, it is an immovable truth that both my school community and the world at large are filled with people I constantly need to converse and engage with. So why are we so hateful? Why are we so quick to point fingers and pinpoint a single source of blame? Why do we not think twice about the things we say? Why can’t we meet halfway?

Of course, not everything in life works out as intended. No matter how much they try, some people may be inherently incompatible. But that highlights my point: we have to try. Despite our school’s exceptionally small student population, a lot of us don’t know each other particularly well. And yet, everyone is so quick to complain, assume, and accuse. If we are all forced to coexist and depend on one another, then we might as well try to understand one another.

How Many People Have Ever Lived On Earth?

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Soccer Struggles

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The first week back from break, the OVS soccer team had a game against Newbury Park. The team was still sluggish because of the three weeks we had off.

I had my own set of challenges coming into the game because I left my soccer gear at my house in Palm Springs. Luckily, Kai had an extra pair of black shorts, and my white socks could be stretched to cover my shin guards. The shorts were nearly pants in size, but they worked, and I was able to play.

The game was difficult. None of us was 100% there. In between plays, I talked to Kai, who said mentally he is still in Japan playing video games. I know I was mentally still in bed or on a couch watching TV.

Over the course of the game, we kept getting slower and slower. The runs became jogs, and the team’s energy wasn’t where it should be.

We ended up losing the game, but came back stronger and won our next two games.

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College realizations

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Now that it’s time to start looking at college, I have realized how much I want to go to a college in California. It is also kinda stressing me out, even though I still have a long time till I have to start applying. It feels crazy how fast these last 3 years have gone by, and even though I’m excited to go to college, I’m still scared to get ready to move away to college. The only other places I would maybe want to apply to are Hawaii, but I don’t think I would ever go. However, this summer, my parents might take me to visit. The top colleges I want to attend are Pepperdine, UCSB, and UCSC. I really want to go somewhere near the beach, and I would never wanna go anywhere other than California because after living here my whole life, I don’t think I could leave and go somewhere else that’s colder or has no ocean. 

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Clavicular

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Recently, on my TikTok for You page, I’ve been getting a lot of videos about the guy called Clavicular, who looks maxes. He seems really scary, but he is kind of valid. He has done tons of injections, and something called bone smashing, where he hits himself in the face with a hammer, and I thought he was just really psychotic, but somehow everything he has done has juristically changed his appearance. The second he reached his “ascension”, which is reaching his prime, he blew up. He was kicked out of college because of his looksmaxing, and even though his life felt ruined in the moment, he became successful for looksmaxing. His career is just based on rating people and trying to get his rating up, but I’m lowkey really invested. His next part of his ascension is his double-jaw surgery, and I hope it goes well and that he doesn’t botch his face.

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Thanksgiving Break

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It is the last day before Thanksgiving break starts, and I have been looking forward to it more than anything. The weather has finally turned cold, and it has been raining all week. This really makes it feel like fall, which makes me very happy. My sister will come home from college, and I can’t wait to see her. Being apart from my sister, who is only two years older than I, is very upsetting. She is like my best friend, and so I really enjoy it when she comes home. It’s weird going from seeing each other every day to only seeing each other on breaks. I got my first college acceptance letter, and I feel a tiny bit of weight lifted off my shoulders knowing that I can at least go to college. This year has been the quickest year of my life, and I feel like I’m not soaking it in enough. Senior year is supposed to be this crazy, exciting year, but it has felt like it’s gone by in literally a day.

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Sports

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Ojai Valley School is known for its prestigious athletics. Our Division 20 varsity winter sports teams are all incredible options for showcasing talent and getting scouted by top colleges. With the options to choose between basketball, soccer, and weightlifting/yoga, my impulse was, of course, to do yoga.

I am by no means a soccer player or basketball player, which led me to make this decision. In the first week, I experienced pure bliss and tranquility lifting weights and listening to my Drake. Life was perfect until the nightmare of mandatory yoga was inflicted upon me.

I reluctantly walked outside without a mat to participate in, quite honestly, the most excruciatingly painful physical experience my body has ever endured. My knees gave out against the firm brick flooring, and I began to cry as holding the cat cow pose reduced my masculinity to zero. I was humiliated. When I couldn’t bear the suffering much longer, I opted to use a bench press as a yoga mat, which proved to be even more difficult as I fell and was made fun of by at least 50 girls.

At that point, I knew this sport was too difficult for me. I simply could not compete and decided to give up. As of now, I am on the soccer team, which I feel will benefit my future and help me get scouted by a Division 1 college team.

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