Month: November 2025

That damn phone

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My mom was right, it is that damn phone. Every time I go on my phone, I know I should be doing something more productive, but instead, I sit and scroll through TikTok, Instagram, Snapchat, and Pinterest, and genuinely enter a flow state. Not a good one, though. I’ve started to notice that my eyes will start to hurt if I’m on a device for too long. My eyes start to get fuzzy, and it looks like I’m dreaming. Even though I’m aware of this happening, I still continue to sit on my phone. It’s a problem. When I start studying, I have to put my phone in a different room from me or give it to my mom. Honestly, everyone should do that; it’s helped me study better. Anyway, I need to limit my phone usage exponentially. It is a PROBLEM. This is how Apple gets you: they make everything look so appetizing to your eyes, and it makes you want more. They are probably watching me now that I said this. Anyways, being on my phone and seeing these unreal bodies and unreal beauty standards lowkey makes me hate myself, so I need to just stay clear of like the industry?? I don’t even know. To sum it up, phone = bad for eyes, self-esteem, and studying. Mwah bye.

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A Rainy Drive to a Lookout

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I really love driving in the rain. I plug in my music and crank up the volume. I pull out of my driveway and hear the rain begin the patter on the roof. I open my sunroof and let the droplets project shadows and shades across the interior of my car. Under the cover of clouds, I drive. I drive to friends’ houses, I drive to school, I drive to the store, I drive to the beach. My favorite drive to do is to any lookout. I drive up and up until I reach a spot that presides over the land below. I park and take it all in. I turn up my heater and turn down my music. The sound of the rain soothes me as I look out onto the landscape below. I am calm, I am happy, I am thinking. I find that this particular circumstance is where I think the best. I cry out all the sadness that reaps my heart. I laugh out all of the giggles trapped in my lungs. I relax, letting the sounds flow through my ears. All of my emotions seem to be soothed in a rainy car at a lookout.

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Film Review: Everything Everywhere All At Once

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Everything Everywhere All At Once is a film that, on paper, by all means, should not work; its story is convoluted with so much happening, with elements taken from various conflicting genres such as action, comedy, drama, romance, absurdist fiction, and science fiction.

And yet, it is one of the most expertly crafted and passion-filled films I’ve ever seen.

While the movie is crammed with so many genres, themes, and unconventional ideas, it somehow manages to excel at everything it tries. Its generic action movie premise centered around the multiverse—a concept that has been overused and grown stale in modern media—is harnessed to enhance its narrative and its themes, rather than serving as a simple gimmick; the multiverse is presented as a parallel to the overwhelming abundance of possibilities and choices in modern life.

Within infinite possibilities, there is so much to be envious, confused, and disappointed in. The choices we made or didn’t make may have driven us away from a more successful or happy life. And yet, this mindset of trying to find meaning in everyday life by chasing extraordinary achievements is what often blinds us from appreciating what we already have.

Without explicit spoilers, the film ties together all its characters and plot lines in service of conveying the theme of cherishing the seemingly insignificant gifts we have, instead of trying to find meaning in a meaningless world.

Everything Everywhere All At Once - Evelyn chases Joy

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Ten Things Curently I hate

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I feel like I don’t hate a lot of things, but I do have random things I just don’t like right now.

  1. College Applications (they make my pockets hurt)
  2. College Writing (It makes me feel like over sharing to a randome person )
  3. Homework (I just don’t like homework, and the senioritis is getting harder to resist)
  4. Math (I miss when there wasnt letters in math problems)
  5. Not having money to spend (I’m just broke)
  6. Taking out my hair after having braids (It’s disappointing to think my hair grew a bunch, only to find out it grew like a centimeter)
  7. Having to take care of my hair (Spending 4+ hours gets aannoyinng really quick)
  8. Not having superpowers (I wish I could fly, so I wouldn’t need to spend money on a ticket)
  9. Having only twenty-four hours in a day ( I wish nighttime were longer)
  10. Having to completely grow up ( Taxes, bills, and other things, also just how much money goes into being able to live, and just finding a job in the current market)

Sports

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Ojai Valley School is known for its prestigious athletics. Our Division 20 varsity winter sports teams are all incredible options for showcasing talent and getting scouted by top colleges. With the options to choose between basketball, soccer, and weightlifting/yoga, my impulse was, of course, to do yoga.

I am by no means a soccer player or basketball player, which led me to make this decision. In the first week, I experienced pure bliss and tranquility lifting weights and listening to my Drake. Life was perfect until the nightmare of mandatory yoga was inflicted upon me.

I reluctantly walked outside without a mat to participate in, quite honestly, the most excruciatingly painful physical experience my body has ever endured. My knees gave out against the firm brick flooring, and I began to cry as holding the cat cow pose reduced my masculinity to zero. I was humiliated. When I couldn’t bear the suffering much longer, I opted to use a bench press as a yoga mat, which proved to be even more difficult as I fell and was made fun of by at least 50 girls.

At that point, I knew this sport was too difficult for me. I simply could not compete and decided to give up. As of now, I am on the soccer team, which I feel will benefit my future and help me get scouted by a Division 1 college team.

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Break

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As Thanksgiving break rolls around, I can barely contain my excitement. Not only do I get a break from school, but I’ll also be able to see my family and friends. It has been over three months since I’ve seen my friends, which, for me, is way too long. I’ll finally get to eat soooo much food, which really brings the whole trip together. Stuffing is my favorite, along with mashed potatoes and turkey, but when everything is piled onto one big plate, it becomes pure deliciousness. I usually won’t eat breakfast or lunch on Thanksgiving Day to build the suspense, making it all that much better. I’m also excited because once we get back from Thanksgiving break, it will be so close to winter break, which is something I’m really looking forward to. I’m going to a resort in the mountains of Canada that can only be accessed by helicopter. We’ll get to snowboard, snowmobile, and play in the backcountry snow. It’s all very exciting.

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My classes

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My classes have been intensely harder this year than years in past. My schedule is set up so on my day ones I have every single hard class. I have Government, Business Math, AP environmental science and Journalism. On my day twos I have an easy day, english, art and two free periods. This schedule feels like a blessing and a curse. Every other day all I do is relax and occasionally don’t even have to arrive at school until 11. But on my day ones I struggle. Every class is rough and I have too many tests. I dont understand enviromental science, it is the most confusing class ever, the way things are worded makes it harder to understand. The tests are even worse. They are online which for some reason makes it much harder. Government is also extremely confusing. I dont understand the class at all and I get yelled at for where I sit. I am so exhausted from this. My grades are not even that bad, but it feels like im actually hanging on by such a thin thread. But it’s okay I just need to get through the next few months and things will get easier because I will get college letters back and know what im doing with my future.

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Life after high school

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I’m not sure what my plan is when I graduate from high school. The only thing I’m sure I’m doing is leaving Ojai. I don’t want to leave California, but I just want to go somewhere not too far. Santa Barbara or Los Angeles would be my top choices for choosing a college and a place to live. I could still visit Ojai, but I wouldn’t have to live here. I feel like I would have a lot more freedom if I left this town, and I would get to know more people. I know college for me isn’t soon, but it’s something that’s always on my mind. I can’t wait to be independent and on my own for most of my time. The thought of moving away from my family and friends here scares me a little, but it’s something almost everyone does, and I know I’ll get used to it at some point. My biggest fear is that I won’t end up liking the college that I’ve decided on and have to stick it out for however long I go for. Leaving a place that I’m so familiar with is a scary thought because it means I will have to familiarize myself with another area all over again. I can’t comprehend the fact that a big part of my future depends on what I choose to do in high school. I have to remind myself that I’m not the only one making a decision that decides my future, because everyone else is figuring out what they want to do just like me.

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Sleep

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I love sleep, but no matter how much I get of it, I’m always tired at school. That may just be a me problem, but I don’t know. The feeling of being tired is so good yet so bad at the same time. When I’m about to go to sleep, being tired is the best thing, but when I’m tired and I can’t sleep, it’s the worst. Aside from actually sleeping, nighttime is the best time of day. When you look up at the sky, the stars radiate throughout the whole night. Every star is unique in its own way, also the constellations are beautiful. The fact they we are just on a floating rock in the middle of nowhere is so crazy to me. Anyway, back to the original point, sleep is amazing. Everything about and surrounding it is amazing. Sleep rejuvenates my body, most of the time, except for when classes are boring. But sleep is great, it’s necessary for everyone, and is the best feeling ever. I love love LOVE sleep.

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I’m Bored

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I’m sitting in journalism class right now. It’s the first period. I woke up exactly an hour ago. Currently, it’s 8:25 in the morning. I keep getting caught up in a daydream about sleeping in. I usually have a very easy time coming up with a topic for my weekly blog, but something is different today. I can’t focus on anything. I rake my brain but it keeps coming up empty. I assume that this is just senioritis infecting me.

I wish I had gotten more sleep last night. I remember telling myself that staying up an extra hour would be fine. Sadly, this ignorant decision has come back to bite me. I can’t believe it’s only 8:30 a.m. and I get out at 5:00 p.m. I cannot comprehend that I’m not going home for eight hours and thirty minutes. These school days are torturously long.

For the last two hours of the day, I’ll be playing soccer down on the field. Honestly, I enjoy sports. I enjoy how being active makes me feel. I would enjoy sports a lot more if they were earlier in the day. Although I do enjoy that sports occur in the cool of the setting sun, I would much rather have practice start and end an hour earlier. I only say that because I want to go home earlier to have more personal time. It’s exhausting to be surrounded by people all day. I barely have any time to reset after school.

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