be sure to go slow with my heart,
it already beats too fast.
and, for me, it’s different

when you hold your hand in mine
or when you look at me like that.
sometimes, i’m left without breath
for no reason,
so it’s not fair
when you run your hands through your hair.
i know in any given moment
when i’m with you,
the butterflies in my stomach aren’t simply innocent.
in our sunday morning coffee dates,
it isn’t the caffeine that makes me jittery.
no, my nervous giggles aren’t your fault.
you aren’t doing anything wrong.
but, when you do all your perfect little things,
when you do everything right,
it doesn’t make breathing any easier.
and, no, i’m not ignoring you
when i go silent,
i’m just afraid of saying the wrong things
because i don’t want to come to the day
when your smile isn’t a guarantee.