Love is confusing.
There are no constants.
There are no answers.
There is no proof.
I can’t hold it.
I can’t ask a question and have a straight answer.
The more I think, the less I truly know.
I thought I stopped loving you,
but did I ever even start?
Of course, I did.
There’s no way I didn’t.
Why are some days so hard and some so easy?
Why can I look at you one day and not feel a thing?
Yet, the next day, I look at you and have butterflies bursting out of my stomach.
I know I don’t love you,
There’s no question about that.
I don’t love who you are, not anymore.
I look back and I still love the man you were.
I love the man who cared about people and wasn’t afraid to show it.
The one who gave hugs to people who looked down.
The one who cared about everyone.
The one who was a little shy and awkward.
I love him,
That’s not you anymore.
Was it ever even truly you
or was it some facade?
Why can’t I find him again?
He’s the one I want.