I Am the Last.

These days my English and US History classes are both learning slavery.
It reminds me of a book called “Ishi” which we read for English10 Honors last year.
Because as learning more and more of them, right now I can feel their loneness for being the only one or the last one.
Here is my poem dedicated to the book “Ishi,” called I am the Last.

Staring around,
the darkness of becoming extinct enveloped me
the loneliness of independence embraced me
the silence of emptiness devoured me
I am the last.

Standing there,
with my eyes indistinct by tears
with my lips sealed by the reality
with my hands tenacious by unfamiliarity
with my heart quivery facing a radically different world
I am the last.

Crying here,
I am trying to explore my own sky
I am attempting to breathe deeply with the bleeding air
I am here
In my new world.

Everything changes on me
But one thing cannot be neglected forevermore is

I am the last.

Of Queens and Kings

We’re silly fools
with our petty fights
We have petty dreams
and sleepless nights

We lie awake
and think up things
New lives and loves
of queens and kings

We dream and wish
of things above
And get lost in
what never was

The years, they pass
the time grows thin
Our lives have flown
and we don’t know when

We spent true time
thinking up a throne:

That our own has fallen?
how we should have known

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Friends Down the Drain

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’m at a loss for words at this point. Always tryin’ to keep up with everyone else just gets so tiring now and I’m just sick and tired of everything. I don’t care about them anymore since it seems that they don’t really care about me. I’m not sure how much it really matters.

I try to channel the belief of the Honey Badger. The belief that nothing affects me is a lot to take. It’s a huge responsibility.

I’m up to it. I want to not care anymore. But not caring is different than being ignorant. It’s just what I do. It’s me.

I want to be able to persevere through anything that may stand in my way. Any obstacle must become invisible. Nothing can stop me. Yet, emotion always seems to drive me backwards. I don’t understand the struggle of keeping momentum going.

It sucks to lose people because of who you are. It’s inevitable but it sucks. My mentality suits me. It doesn’t always suit those around me. Unfortunately, I can’t change what I know to be me.

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The Foxes and Coyotes

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In a great desert lived Foxes and Coyotes.

They got along great for a time.

A holy man led them both to an oasis.

To a desert paradise.

The Oasis sought to divide them.

Eventually the Oasis did.

Foxes and Coyotes were brothers once.

But both now fight and die.

The other desert creature sought to end the bloodshed.

They drafted an unbreakable truce.

Foxes gleefully accepted, their numbers had withered down.

Coyotes barely accepted, not wanting to share with the Foxes.

Time passed, the Coyotes outnumbered the Foxes.

They attempted to exclude Foxes from oasis lands.

The Coyotes launched an attack and surprised the Foxes.

The Foxes had something the coyotes did not.

Courage and an unbreakable will.

The Foxes stopped the Coyote attack.

The Coyotes lost much of their land.

The other desert creatures were furious and tried for another truce.

The Coyotes vowed for vengeance and would eventually attack again.

Caterpillar & Butterfly

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A butterfly populates the world with color and shine.

These creatures show natural beauty to all of mankind.

They start life as caterpillar, they’re ugly in a way.

Fat little creatures that must keep predators at bay.

They eat leaves and shed skin, a never ending feast.

It is not a beautiful creature yet, it is just a beast.

The Caterpillar is done shedding its skin.

Its life as a beast is almost at an end.

It finds a nice sturdy tree to hang itself from.

It will emerge from its cocoon when its transformation is done.

Weeks pass.

The Caterpillar sleeps fast.

Slowly there is a movement in its temporary tomb.

It emerges from its prison like a baby from the womb.

Its wings are damp it cannot fly.

It must dry itself or it will die.

Finally the butterfly is ready, the world is now fair.

Killer of these magical creatures now must beware.
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An Idea


An idea is hard to silence.

It builds in one’s mind

Slowly at first

Gaining traction

It begins to take up the real estate of the mind

Shrinking other ideas

But an idea cannot disappear

It is always there

Waiting for its moment

Always living.

Just a simple Idea

The Plan

The plan so far
is to not grow up

But to grow grey
wrinkled and old

The difference
between the two

Is there

But you must find it
for yourself

People Around Us

We look to the people around us as a support group

Improvised experts in our life

A group of people that know us the best

Like a herd of elephants crossing Africa

We keep these people close as we make journeys

These people are told everything

And are sometimes told nothing

The people around us should be more than friends

They should become Family

Dreams.

I’ve been hiding from my dreams day by day
Just in case they don’t step into my way
But I never know
I am never told
That they could be rotten in the clay

After the nightmare I’m awake
Can’t find any excuses to make
Dig them out underground
To cure my severe wound
I wish to do whatever it would take

To give the reality a strike