Annabel Lee II

I was a child and she was a child,

In this kingdom by the sea,

But we loved with a love that was more than love—

I and my Annabel Lee—

With a love that the wingèd seraphs of Heaven

Coveted her and me.

I open my eyes.

The words fade slowly, dissipating like fog before a cold night wind.

Numbness has set into my bones, preventing me from feeling anything.  I can no longer sense the freezing spray on my skin, the bitter gale’s bite across my face.  The sky has darkened, turning the clouds from ash to slate and the last lines of green have bled from the water, leaving it colorless and violent.

Looking up to a higher hill, I see my destination.  Although I feel nothing, I wrap my coat more tightly around me and tilt my head forward, burying my face in the musty wool of my scarf.

I have spent the last months grieving, so naturally I have not been out for much exercise other than to visit her.  The effort it takes to climb the hill makes my legs burn and my chest tighten.  Only when the pain comes can I feel the cold air press against my throat and restrict my breathing.  Puffs of white rush forth from my lips and swirl away quickly.

Panting I stop beside the sepulchre.  I gaze sightlessly at the words, tracing the ridges of the engraving with stiff fingers.  Naturally I know it by heart.

Annabel Lee Ashford-Dalton

1809-1830

Devoted Daughter

Generous Sister

Loving Wife

I let my fingers drift over the words Annabel Lee, Dalton and loving wife but avoid from touching the others entirely.  My name belies my wealth and status.  Her family has always hated me passionately.  Their aristocratic legacy is far superior to my nondescript background.  The highborn daughter of a noble could not possibly fraternize with the impoverished son of a widow.  And yet my Annabel had loved me.  When I could not give her jewels or silks, carriages or marble fountains, she loved me.

I wager they are more than happy to be rid of me now.

I stare down at the unfeeling black marble.  It is cold, rigid and sharp; things Annabel had never been in life.  Droplets of water cling to it, making the stone appear as if it weeps. The tears remind me so much of our drip castle and I press my fingers to my eyes and sigh.

Memories rush around me.

After building our castle, it was several weeks before I saw Annabel again.  But following our second encounter, we scarcely went a day without seeing each other.  I learned that she was staying with a nanny and her eldest sister in the Ashfords’ summer home.  Her mother was ailing and the rest of her family had sent her away to protect her from sickness.  Apparently she took ill very easily and had an extremely difficult time recovering.

I took to calling her Annalie, just a simple contraction of Annabel Lee.   Her nanny, whose name was Matilda, abhorred the nickname.  Every time she heard me say it, she cringed and gave me a disdainful look.  Matilda would pronounce each syllable, saying, “Ann uh Lee…” then scowl at Annabel and say, “Really miss Ashford, that is far too crude a name for a lady of your station.  I must insist you bid him to refrain from calling you that.”

Of course she never did.  Annabel loved my little name for her.  She said it was friendly and sweeter than Annabel Lee, as every family member used that formal address when speaking to her.

Even though Matilda openly disliked me, not once did she forbid Annabel from seeing me. Her sister, Eleonora, seldom took notice of her youngest sibling and paid no mind to our interactions.

Years went by and our friendship grew, my affections for her waxing all the while.  When I was ten and four, Annabel invited me over to her family’s estate for the first time.  I remember the hot feeling of excitement and the chill of nervousness when I accepted her invitation.

As I said before, I had no love of God, but thankfully I still owned Sunday clothes.  They were a bit small and slightly wrinkled, but presentable and clean nonetheless.

I caught my mother smiling softly to herself as she polished the buttons on my coat and ironed my trousers.  She took great care in fixing up my clothes.

I washed my hair and she combed the curls through, neatly pushing them back against my forehead.  She put her hands on my shoulders and whispered in my ear, “You’re such a handsome boy… You look so like you father… You have his eyes, and his smile.”

Indeed all who knew Caspian Dalton told me I looked exactly like him.  I only inherited one trait from my mother and that was her incredibly tall and slender frame.

Rosaline Dalton was a beautiful woman.  Creamy white skin set fire to her bright red hair.  Corkscrew curls, the color of glossy cherry wood, cascaded down her back in sprightly ringlets.  The faintest spray of freckles dotted the bridge of her nose and under her eyes.

My mother had the loveliest eyes.  They were an unusual color, somewhere between warm cinnamon and melting chocolate.  There were even hints of gold in them.  Sparkling and soft, they always made me feel protective of her.

But since my father’s death, there hung a kind of quiet sadness in their depths.  It did not dampen their light, but it somehow changed it.  Before, they had glittered like orbs of polished amber.  After he died, they were shinier but less glittery; she looked hurt, lost.

My father had loved her more than anything.  Perhaps those jealous angels took him too…

Annabel hurried me though the house.  In fact, we moved so quickly I cannot even recall the color of the carpet or the size of the foyer.  She took me into the garden, only then did she slow and relax.

The garden was enclosed by glass, protecting the inhabitants from weather.  Some plants were thin and tall, others were short and thick.  I was ashamed that I did not know the name of even one specimen.

Annabel gently touched my hand and led me to the center of the garden, to the flowerbeds.  A stone fountain bubbled happily, spurting clear water from a fish’s mouth down into the shallow basin below.  I sighed, relieved.  I did in fact know the names of the beautiful blossoms.

I spied a red rose, velvety and trembling on its long, thorny stem.

Next to it, a tulip rested sleepily, its waxy pink petals looking heavy and healthy.

Six white daisies with soft yellow centers surrounded a vibrant sunflower.

But one flower stood out from the others.  A single star lily grew near the fountain.  Fragile and feminine, it smelled fresh and delicate.  The petals were mostly deep pink, but the outermost edges were white.  A pale green throat barred balls of gold pollen, mounted on slender stalks.

“That one is my favorite,” Annabel whispered.

I turned to look at her.

She was beautiful, standing there in her gossamer mauve dress.  Her hair was longer than when we first met, almost reaching her waist. Deep sea green eyes searched my face, gleaming and her skin looked softer and more radiant than ever.  But one thing held my gaze, mesmerized, enchanted; I could feel my heart hammering in my throat and blood throbbing behind my eyes.

Her lips looked so lush and satiny, untouched, flawless.  I could smell the sweetness of her skin, vanilla and rose water.  My mind wandered for a moment.  I thought it strange she smelled of roses when she loved lilies so much.

She shifted, and the motion brought my focus back.

“Annalie…” I said, not taking my eyes from her lips.

“What is it?” she asked, frozen.

“Have you ever…” I could not bring myself to finish the question.

“No,” she breathed.  Then added almost inaudibly, “But I’d like to.”

I hesitated, taking in the exquisite green of her eyes and the perfection of her face.  I had never touched her hair, though I had always wanted to.  The silky strands seemed to melt as I slid my fingers though them; her hair was even softer than I had ever imagined.

Closing my eyes, I leaned forward and inhaled her scent one last time before my mouth met hers.

I felt hot and dizzy the moment our lips made touched.  Color and shadow spiraled around in my head, taking me to the edge of consciousness and threatening to push me into the abyss.  She surrendered her weight to me and I held her, the unbearable sweetness overwhelming me, permeating my every sense.

She tasted of sugar and honeysuckle with just a hint of exotic spice.  The warmth of her skin set my own on fire.  So there I stood, ablaze, holding a fay in my arms.

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our rear-ends saved.


Our soccer team this year started out as a bright star. After crushing the Midland School we believed we could go all the way.  But coming back from our month break and losing five players, we have struggled since.  Unfortunately by losing those key players we have had problems finding players to fill those voids and we have not really been able to find our balance.

Coming off of two defeats to the Thacher and the Dunn schools, we have had our spirits down a bit.  Coming up on Saturday we were set to play one of the best teams in the state, Cate School.  Saturday morning I woke up to the wonderful sound of rain.  The pitter-patter had never sounded so good.

With the rain meant that we would not have to play Cate and most likely suffer another crushing defeat. Not I am not a coward but nor do I like to suffer terrible defeats, and with half our team “infirmed” we would not have stood a chance.

So we were saved by the weather from a terrible fate, and hopefully we will be able to stand a chance the next time we play them.

Farmers Market


Every Sunday is the farmers market, most towns have these.  For me we have one within walking distance right in the harbor.  Except I never go.  Yesterday though, I went, and it was really nice.

It brought back memories from when I was younger and we would go every weekend to pick up our local produce.  These days though it has changed quite a bit, it has grown about twice as big and has more than just produce.

The entire front section is now devoted to street vendors selling  homemade wares and kettle korn stalls.

In the central area there is now a live band every sunday, an espresso bar and you can go down to the wharf to buy fresh fish the fishermen caught just that morning.

It was really nice to finally go back to the farmers market after its been almost a year since last I went.

49ers Player #10 Kyle Williams Costs the team a chance at the Super Bowl


Tonight was a sad night for all San Francisco 49ers fans, a sadness brought on by a 3 point defeat from the New York Giants. A win that was fed on a silver platter to the Giants by 49ers player Kyle Williams.

His first major mistake was a bad bounce and his hesitation to make a decision, the ball bounced off his own knee. Despite being filmed from several angles on national television, Kyle Williams thought he could deceive the world with his acting skills. The ball took an obvious direction change after colliding with Williams’ knee, yet he pretended like it had never happened. When he heard the referee’s decision, he acted like he was a victim.

49ers Player #10 Kyle Williams took the award for being the laughing-stock of tonight’s game. Thanks to his inability to keep hold of the football, which was smacked out of his hands by Jacquian Williams from the Giants.

It is a shame that one player could have such an effect on the outcome of a game. Especially when it’s for the worst.

What do you think?

SOPA= Evil

In the mist of all the talks of free speech and SOPA, a site that most of us use has been shut down. Megaupload, that famous provider of  intellectual properties for free, allowing users to get quality software without paying. It is as simple as clicking a button.

The founder of Megaupload Kim Schmitz was found living in an extravagant manor. This home was described as an electronic fortress, equipped with the highest quality surveillance available on the market. This wealthy man refused to let police in and then resorted to hiding in a safe room. The police then cut into the safe room where they found Kim Schmitz cowering next to a sawed off shotgun.

He was promptly arrested and is currently waiting for his court date in a New Zealand jail. Following his arrest the FBI shut down Megaupload, a decision that was met with much outcry on the internet. Following  Megauploads shutdown, the FBI was attacked by Anonymous and had their own site shutdown.

I for one to not support SOPA finding the bill to be complete @$%*&, it remains to be seen whether other “questionable” sites will be taken down.

Of Monsters And Men.

Of Monsters And Men

Sometimes on a cold winters day all you need is some comforting folk, fun, music that raises your spirits in the dismal weather. Mumford and Sons are a great band but if they do not tickle your fancy you must give Of Monsters And Men a listen.

Of Monsters And Men are six-piece folk/pop bands from Iceland who write catchy, folky, soulful music. With a mixture of female and male vocals and an assortment of instruments and acoustics the 6 piece band comes together like the perfect pie.

The band produces the perfect soundtracks for watching the rain fall, driving through the snow or sitting in front of a fire with a cup of Cocoa.

Releasing their first album My Head is an Animal in Iceland in September 2011, the band currently only has an EP available in America on iTunes. Named Into the Woods, the EP is a perfect collection of songs.  The band has received a lot of attention from people across the U.S, releasing their single Little Talks as a free song on iTunes. The band are now signed to the Universal Music Group and fans look forward to hearing more from the group in the coming year.

So if you feel like listening to some great, festive sounding music give Of Monster And Men a listen.

What Tim Tebow and the GOP Candidates Have in Common

The reason I first made this connection is because I hate both of them. Let me start out explaining why I hate Tebow because I think people know why I hate the GOP Candidates.

Tim Tebow is a great athlete, there is no hiding from that. And like many athletes, Tim Tebow is religious. But what makes Tebow stand out is his proselytizing that he constantly does.

From his Super Bowl anti-abortion commercial to his constant kneeling, Tebow makes it his goal for everyone to know that he loves God.  It is so obnoxious for him to constantly thank God and Jesus for his successes. He can thank them in his head, he doesn’t need to say it out loud.

Yes, I am both an atheist and a liberal so I am predisposed to dislike these characters. But there are many Christians who hate Tebow and just as many republicans that can’t stand their candidates.

So what do these two have in common besides me hating them? They both are putting on a show.

I’m sure Tebow loves god but he wants the attention for his devotion. The GOP candidates (mainly Romney) are making it seem like they have beliefs far more radical than in actuality, just to gain votes.

Now I realize that in our society we have a tendency to act differently to impress others, it’s part of our nature.

But it is stupid that so many people fall for the obvious ploys of these actors. I guess the reason I hate both of them is because they make me realize how ignorant many of my fellow Americans are.

It disgusts me that so many people listen to words without thinking about the meaning behind them. TIM TEBOW WANTS TO CONVERT YOU! THAT IS HIS GOAL! THE GOP WANTS YOUR VOTES!

Do not believe they are good and righteous people just because they tell you they are. Listen to me, I am the Pope. See what I did there? (I’m not the Pope).

Stop being gullible and ignorant. Stop living up to the stereotypes that the rest of the world make about us. Be smart.

Shutter Island

Gosh, it was such an unexpected ending. The producer of this movie must be super smart.

Shutter Island was directed and produced by Martin Scrosese in the United States in 2010. The movie is based on the novel by Dennis Lehane and is starring Leonardo Dicaprio as the U.S Marshal “Edward Daniels” who came to “Shutter” island, where a psychiatric facility is located, to investigate the case of a woman who had earlier managed to escape from the facility.

The plot of the movie was very confusing with a misleading ending, but it’s so worth seeing. I would highly recommend seeing this movie with you friends so you could discuss it afterwards, otherwise, you might not understand the message.

I strongly believe that this movie should be on your must-to-do –list !

Fat Sundays with Tom Cruise

Huddled together.

Light cutting the darkness like blades

through the spaces between the blinds.

Our heads come closer to the screen,

our limbs intertwined.

A mess of blankets and

the overwhelming scent of Chinese food.

Golden Moon did it again.

Our stomachs are aching

but, we don’t mind.

Tom Cruise is almost dead,

Julia with a gun in her hand.

HE’S ALIVE!

We all let out a sigh of relief,

our hands let go of each others.

This is a good Sunday afternoon.

Surrounded by my friends,

just being fat and lazy.

I am so happy.

This is happiness.

“Friendship is a special kind of love.”

Unfit Not Lazy

lazy

Being unfit should be some sort of disorder. Being unfit is not being lazy, it’s just not being capable of doing much exercise. Yes I admit I struggle sufficiently when doing a lot of exercise. This is not because I struggle to walk from the grocery store to my car or because I struggle to even step in the shower. It is because I struggle when doing sports.

This sounds stupid for someone who is so young but I admit I am extremely unfit. I’ve always done exercise and kept moving but still, I sometimes experience slight asthmatic symptoms when walking up to the cafeteria and in situations alike.

My Dad likes to comment that I never do exercise and that I’m extremely lazy. This is because evenings for me consist of food, homework, shower and bed at best. I literally have no time to myself and once my workday is done it is time to rest. I am not fat or lazy and, although others may like to argue differently, I do my best to exercise.

Being unfit just comes to some as a second nature; I guess it’s just one of my bad traits. The best I can do is to try my best to scare it off and if not work against it because after all you can’t let anything hold you back.