Lack of control, lack of consciousness. From a passing feeling of anxiety grows a larger, stronger sensation.
A pit embedded so deep in my stomach, sprouting vines that spread to the very tips of my fingers. The pit grows larger and larger, heavy as rock, hard as steel.
I pass it off as nothing. All in my head, nothing of significance. But this rock, this sensation, leaves me hyper aware.
Each movement shoots throughout my body, ricocheting off of every surface. Any tingle, shiver or prickle is felt in every nerve, magnified by my growing alertness.
And this greater attention leads to a realization, an understanding of this feeling. My depths are screaming to be let out, stopping at nothing to be heard.
I fall, deeper and deeper into my head; I am below the surface, unaware of the world around me. This pit, this feeling, is overtaking me.
The vines wrap around my brain, my eyes, anything they can grasp, bringing darkness to my world and shutting out any understanding.
My hands are immobile, unresponsive to my commands. These vines suffocate me, wrapping around my neck and my brain, squeezing tighter and tighter.
I have lost all ability to speak – to guide and to oversee. Dark clouds loom over my last drop of consciousness, obscuring my last speck of assurance.
I have lost control.