What I fail to do in my day-to-day life is take things less seriously.
I always think about the future and whether the guy I have a crush on will ever reciprocate my feelings or whether I’ll ever amount to anything.
These things—these vague dreams and thoughts of mine cause my stomach to churn and my eyes to fill with tears.
I want to live life for now, not waste my thoughts on the future. For who knows whether I’ll even be alive for the moments I dream about.
When I was younger I would see people in commercials, with their perfect BMI and perfectly white teeth, and I couldn’t help but think, why not me?
Why am I not happy or perfect everyday of the year? Why am I not constantly dressed in designer knock offs from Macy’s?
The truth is, these people are just actors who are paid to be happy, and they’re probably not paid too much either. I mean it’s a JC Penney commercial.
If you were happy everyday of your life you wouldn’t be a person, you’d be a game show host.
I try to live my life with as much hope as possible.
While on the outside I seem like this moody teenager who thrives off sarcasm and the misfortune of others, I really do care.
I love to laugh and I love to make people laugh. I love sunshine and 80’s power ballads. I love animals and strong coffee. I love my family and friends.
I want to live my life happy. I don’t care if I’m never rich or famous or the star of a TJ Maxx commercial, I just want to be the happiest person I can be.